my life...

a levels are coming...

2007-10-19T23:56:00.000+08:00

Ok im typign this second time cos soemthign went wrong wif the publishing in the first round. Basically ben seck's com has some error n i havta use it to type this entry since my com has problems as well. I cant blog la. sianz.

Anyway i wanna thank God for the tiems that He has never given up on me, how He has constantly send ppl bside me, guidign me n leading me onto the right path. Without these people in my life, i think i wud hav backslidden n died 1000x times. Thank God for His goodness and His people. =]. So anyway so much has happened in my life, its strange how we cna b so determined to do osmehting for God at one instance and totally lose it in the next. I wanna devote my life whole heartedly to God, but there are so many hindrances to this seemingly unachievable goal. We hear of so many inspirational stories, how God cna touch lives, transform ppl, heal, the list is endless. And the same thing hits me over n over again, y cnat i b like them? And hte answer is evident, its me. Hmm. I really dunno howta work out all the problems im dealing with, but mayb i dun havta, God will make a way. I believe. I envision my life 20 years from now. Hey! Im gonan b a changed man, a better person, a stronger person in my Christian faith, and ppl will neo that i changed for the bttr for God. But that change does not come from empty talk, it starts now. I pray God will help me to devote myself wholeheartedly surrendering all to him todae. =].

relieved...

2007-09-23T15:50:00.000+08:00

ok im back after a logn time. my com is crazy la. i cant enter my blogger somehting wrong. i think its on a hiatus or soemthing. haha.

anyway im at seck jing wen's house and lookign at haachi la. super cute pelase. one day i shall dog-nap it n den i will make it mine. change its name or something. =p. n seck is actually studying now, he best lor tried to entice me by sleeping on his bed juz now. i feel super sleepy la. but then i shall perservere. i need to go home n play ro and do qt n do etc etc stuff. haha.

so many things happen lor since my last entry. u all shud juz forget the last few entries i think. i dun wanna delete it cos it serves as a gentle reminder. =]. i shall press on, liek esther say, must hav the tenacity. trust God. =].

nothign much more to blog abt now. i shall tok to the dog. =]. haachi forver~!

its over...

2007-09-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

i fell.

i picked myself up.

i tried my best.

but i c no results.

its over.

its the end.

no more misery.

no more pain.

no more troubles.

no more excusess.

no more of "no mores".

im free! im free to go!

Now tell me why do i feel so empty inside?

Why do i feel my heart hurt?

Why do i cry myself to sleep each night?

pressure...

2007-08-22T22:59:00.001+08:00

the pressure is on, and it hits me so hard as the days go by. Im not refering to prelims, im refering to my christian walk.

You noe sometimes i really admire the christians, not becos i am one, but because they remain faithful even though they face persecution after persecution. Its kinda irritating sometimes, and each time i hear some one arguing or criticising christianity, it makes me feel that the world is becomign bleaker and even more hardened. Its hard not to feel that that way, when even the closest ppl ard u begin to view u wif skepticism and its juz really annoying.

I mean how many times have we heard the non believing ppl say christians are so-and-so-and-so, and then they laugh abt it. I dunno i think its juz really wrong n disrespectful. Take for example the south korean team that went to taliban, my classmates actually turned ard to me and ask me why "u all christians like that de ah?" i mean like wads the problem, why cant we do it? u noe. And then becos of one issue they link it back to christianity n they complaint abt christians n how we act again. i dun c that happening to the muslims. Like why dun u go ask the muslims, "haiyo y u all liek that de anyhow bomb ppl?", the answer is qutie duh rite? its becos they hav no link at all to this suicide bombers, n so we udn anyhow link them to our muslim frenz. im not being mean or anything, im juz using the muslims as n example. True, we christians do send alot of mission trips alot but u got to noe the full story before u jump into conclusions.

For christians, we believe that onli those that believe in Jesus can go to heaven, soemthing liek a pass, but it still doesnt guarantee the entry to heaven. But the point is that, at the stage of our conversion, we are deemed saved and thats it, if we die we go to heaven, whiel the rest may not go to heaven. I dun really care whether ure trying to argue this point wif me, abt whether non believers can go to heaven, my point is that, we are gg n ure not. N then thinkin abt it, y do christians try so hard to reach out to u ppl? Its qutie disheartening if u hear ppl say "haiya church again" "u all onli go find frenz" and "onli suck money onli" that sorta stuff. Like think deeper please. Why do ur frenz persist on bringing u to church, its like we dun need that little bit of money that u wud giv, im not even sure the visitors actually giv, and frenz u can make frenz everywhere, church isnt the onli avenue rite. We are concerned and we care for u ppl thats y we persist n hold on to our hope. Its not liek we get credits or merits or wad not, we do not accumulate points that eventually guarantee our access to the pearly gates. think. n dun criticise all the time. Wud it hurt to go for juz one day, ok afew hrs to be exact? I dunno, sometimes i jzu wish for more understanding n a deeper n more thoughtful view b4 u ppl make comments the next time.

reality check...

2007-08-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

Woah. The prelims are less than 1 week away and im playing RO. Somebody slap me, ok i didnt mean that literally so pelase dun do anythign physical to me. Anyway everybody in class is so hyped up n enthusiastic abt studying but i get so sluggish n tired whenever i hit the books. I need to be disciplined and self motivated. God! Where am i goin to find those stuff. Haiz.

Anyway on a lighter note, ok i dunno y isit LIGHTER cos the 3 boxes of donuts from donut factory was kidna bulky and heavy, i got donuts from donut factory. Haha. It was suepr nice la, i feel liek slappign my dad noe. He eat liek so many le, den say "i dun think its that fantastic". He actually compared it to old chang kee?! I dun c any link at all so i guess its his way of showiing his disapproval of something? =p. Haha.

I need to study study study and my left eye hasnt stop twitching since saturday. Its not superstitious but i guess soemthing is abt to happened. =P. Haha. I think wad wai yin said was rite i need sleep. BADLY. Ok then i shall end here n continue again next time. =p.

desperation...

2007-08-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

I need desperation in my life. For God that is. I feel im not doing my part as a christian well. Though i mention God perhaps 10 or even twenty tiems day, i think its too external, im not internalising that truth yet. I dun act the way that God wants me to be, i think im depending too much on human knowledge, too much on my own strength. Its funny that i was thinking atb this issue juz a month ago, liek how do we truly rely on God but i nvr seem to get the answer. I think God works in mysterious ways, liek when He wans u to noe something, it just coems naturally. Liek quite cool rite? =p. Anyway i think i need to put God in the centre, just think abt everything b4 i act on it. WWJD. I think that shall b my motto for now, or at least until i got my life in the direction carefully chosen for me. Im happy that i serve a faithful God, who does nto discrimate or mock or scorn others or looks down on those that are not worthy for His love. He is generous, great and almighty. I love Him and He loves me and you. I think my life is just so blessed and wonderful. Thank You Jesus =].

happy bdae to me...

2007-08-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

YAY im finally 18! Really thank God for the people He has have bless me wif. Today was great, i was thinking only a couple of ppl wud make it for dinner todae, and in all there were liek 10 of us. Kinda touched =p. Haha. Anyway minds was fun we shud go back again, next time let wai yin sit away from me so she doesnt hit my hand. And erm, thanks for the cake. Not bad la, quite nice. Haha. And oh ill liek to thank the class for the shirt. Yupz. I think thats it, i dun mind belated presents ppl, so its still not too late. Alrite, its late now ciaoz. =]

new direction...

2007-08-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

I wanna commit my life to God. Leave everything to Him. Do my best for Him. If i fall, i noe i can always run back to Him, becos He loves and cares for me. I dun wanna exploit and take advantage of His generosity, grace, mercy etc etc. God's love is great and i wanna shine for Him. Just do my best and leave everything in God's hands. Thats all i can do and the only thing i can do. =].

SOS...

2007-07-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

God i need help!

my wonderful life...

2007-07-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

I totally LOVE my life! My life rawks i tell u ppl. I hav 2 really LOVING parents n i LOVE them so very much for all the LOVE they have poured into my life. Words simply cant express how much i LOVE them, i think my life liek totally rawks~! =].

Well it all started abt a couple of hrs ago, ok mayb since there are parallels to other similar scenarios in the past its not quite juz a couple of hrs ago. wadeva it is, my dad juz came happily strolling past, n he told me soemthing that blew my mind away! He told me that i should work harder like his wadeva wadeva fren and one of his sons whom i dun really bother to noe much abt, except that my dad keeps filling me wif information abt him. So this really smart guy got liek double degrees in university or soemthing, suppiose to hav some exchange programme thing. Liek so smart rite? Liek wow! Im totally excited abt hearing everything abt it n i feel so motivated to study. And my dad ask me to get some scholarship n all. N then comes my wise mother who asks my dad to "forget it la, he can go to U already very happy le" Such wise words coming from my mother's mouth. I feel so comforted that i hav such an understanding mother who exactly knows my standard. I told u i simply LOVE this ppl. And then my dad seems kinda shocked, n he turns to me and asks me whether i really go out to study or do i go out n do other stuff. U noe liek play lan, smoke, take drugs, waste money, doing something illegal, soemthing along that lines, u get wad im driving at. N den i said yah im studying, and then he goes on liek "then y she(my mom) keeps saying such stuff?" sounding really surprised n puzzled. So in my innocence i said "yea, u dunno meh, she always like that de since primary sch, u dun believe ask shermin(my sis) la" And then he continued "are u sure not? are u gg out to study?", n once again i confirmed my stand. And then he actually INTELLIGENTLY said the same thing, "den y she still liek that" i got a sense of dejavu, but pretending that i havent said anythign before i said "yea i really did study" all this while my mom kept silent. n den my dad proceeded "u bttr get good results, get scholarship, u can go u not?" and then the silent one spoke "haiyo that is a big question mark" n i was like "how i noe whether i can go u? Liek i take o lvls le i oso dunno whether i can go jc or nto rite? until the resutls out den i noe mah" n he said "how cna u not noe?!" i was really puzzled by his increase in his tone of voice n i said "really wad" n den he scolded me, he said "r u really studying or not?" by this time i was getting a little frustrated n stood firm in my stand, but den he went back to the same old point, "den y she say such things?" i was liek "i really got study la" n den he looked really angry (i really didnt noe y) n den he walked away, so did my mom.

At the end of this saga, a new story began to unfold. I got the army letter reminding me of the medical check up this fri, so when he walked pass me once again n ask me abt the letter, i said i was gg for the checkup on fri. He asked me whether i noe the place n i said i udnno, but i can ask my frenz, since practically everyone has been there alredi. N then he started shouting again "everything oso dunno! everything oso ask fren, liek no mind of ur own, ur frenz all die le den how u survive?!" i was really taken aback. I nvr tot of that. Perhaps i WOULD really die without frenz. I dunno. N then he stormed off, in abt a couple of minutes he came back n he looked at the letter n said some address at the top was the palce i was suppose to report. I was like "o ok how u noe?" den he shouted at me again, he went on n on n den he said "im trying very hard to be nice to u, but u onli make me hate u onli" I gotta b honest here, i hav no idea how shouting n scolding, n PURPOSELY doin the things we dun like, forcing us to do all the dirty work while he sits down n watches tv is being nice to me? Hmm, i need to go check up on definition of being nice, mayb that can be my university thesis. But oops i forgot, according to my wise mother, i wudnt hav that opportunity, but yet again, according to my dad, im suppose to b a double degree hodler, so i shud havta write anth thesis rite? Hmm, i need to ask my fren abt that. Hmm.

O i think i bttr go sleep, im goin to study early tmr morning. I totally LOVE my life, dun u all agree wif me? =]

=]...

2007-07-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

I need reminders. Constant reminders how blessed my life is right now. Sometimes i tend to take things for granted. I need to dedicate my all, give my everything to God. My life is in His hands, thats all i ever need to care about. God grant me a stable 2-way relationship =].

sick...

2007-07-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

u noe sometimes when u feel sick u feel really happy, cos u dun need to go to school n stress urself out. But other times when ure sick, u cant do anything but juz sleep, u think ure wasting ur life away. thats bad. Haha. i got a fever on wed ntie, actually i think it started in the day, i shud hav took a workign thermometer, then mayb i had skip wed's lessons. anyway i got back most results, n i dun think i shud b skippin any lessons wif that kinda grades. =p.

So anyway ive been liek sleepign for mroe den 2 days, liek i wake up only to eat. Lol. i make myself soudn liek a pig, but thats out of point. anyway its quite cool la, sleep onli, but i dun udnerstand y i feel so tired. i got a couple of really really weird dreams. Super funny i tell u. lol. Anyway i cant wait for sch on monda. Im serious la. Cos must catch up ah. Sianz sianz. I hate school but really must do well for A's. So ironic rite. T_T. nvm la. anyway my fever's kidna subdued now. Hope it doesnt rise to 39+ again! Ok ntiez ppl. Sleep well n dun fall sick! =]

2007-07-08T19:20:00.000+08:00

ive been really encouraged by wad ive been seeing in church recently. Like all of God's promises and all the interpersonal relationshions n all, they've really improved alot within the last weeks. I guess its true that when ure walkign in the light, everything seems so much more smooth? haha. anyway i juz felt liek blogging abt stuff that ive been thinking frequently abt in my mind so yeah. And before i officially began, happy bdae to all the ppl born in the mth of june. too many ppl. lol =p.

So anyway ive been thinking alot abt vicious cycles/bondages etc. these few weeks. How however much we try to struggle free from wadeva chains that are holdign us back, we end up running around in circles and never ever moving away from where we were at the beginning. Its kidna stupid actually, liek u tire urself for nth, eg.at the end of the day realizing uve actually accomplished nth. I dun wan that to happen. vicious cyles! evil! i dun liek such things. i think its kidna of irritating and i wanna b free from it.

And i oso think alot abt the unbelievers more n mroe each day. Liek i think alot of us are becoming really selfish, liek think of our own problems first, think alot abt wad we fail at, at then we think its the end of the world. and then we forget abt the ppl out there screaming for us to go help them. i dunno its juz sad la. i think its cos we dun understand the urgency. i didnt always think liek that, but i think experiencing so many deaths recently made me realised this. Today ps tony told us abt the gal who didnt share wif her fren even though she felt led to becos she was scared. i noe how she feels. i certainly do. but the thing is when she realise her fren has died and she cried like mad n even need after gg thru counsellign that God will forgive her, its really a matter of how much she can forgive herself. Liek hey ure gg to b forgiven n ull b in heaven n singing praises to the Lord, but when u look down, u c ur fren burning n all. wad im saying here is not to discourage, but really to think abt it, like do we really want to giv us this opportunity to b angry wif ourselves? to hate ourselves for not doin wad God had intended us to do? i think we shud really cherish the little time we hav, n really spread revival fires in this land. no time left le.

yup i think thats it fro now. go eat dinner cya ppl~

the start of school...

2007-07-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

Its the start of school tmr. Im super sad la! Though life's kinda boring now, but at least its still much better as compared to gg back to school. School's so boring right now, like its all exams test n etc. I hate it la, its so no life. Like i really dun see a point, but i cant do anything abt it, so i juz havta bear wif it. =[. Haiz. School starts in less den 12 hrs. T_T. im really sad now.

im happy...

2007-06-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

i went out today wif the few ppl from church and it was kidna cool. We went shopping for my shirt, ben seck's new wallet and we went for real good mudpie at coffee club. Its not that expensive u noe if u share. =]. So anyway it was real funny cos we walked ard taka for 1 whole hr and den we went over to centrepoitn to eat cos it was too crowded everywhere else. And then we went back to taka got ben seck's wallet n den down to hugo boss and zara and then to topman n finally fcuk. We're not being materialistic k, its juz that my taka vouchers onli work on the exp places, i really dun wanna buy something so expensive. Honest! But then i gotta admit i had to get a nice one la cos got 2 weddings coming up so my mom asked me to get a nicer one. So yeah not really my fault u noe. Then we went to coffee club for mudpie. Talk abit abt jason upton n how cool it was etc. It was good.

On a side note, i watched liek a couple of movies durng the last 2 days. Bridge to terabithia, happily never after, dreamgirls, pursuit of happiness. I must say bridge is perhaps the nicest of them all. Super sad la, liek OMG y must leslie u noe.. Haiz. I cried myself to sleep last nite. Im becomign very emotional lately, i cry very easily dunno y. But good la. haha. stupid rachell qibin n the rest dun wanna watch that show. Its kinda stupid la, but really lor i think i can relate to the story. Really sad. Dreamgirls was good, the songs quite nice la, liek they harmonise together n stuff not abt the secular music, the lyrics no meaning de quite retarded. Happily never after kidna cliche and pursuit is juz stupid. Haha. So anyway u ppl shud watch bridge! 2 thumbs up.

Ok i gtg now, tmr they're screening the movie in church, my sisters are coming. Dunno howta tell them, but i dun wan them to accept Christ becos it seems cool or stuff. I need to talk to them properly abt it, though it seems really weird n retarded. Such things like the good news and accepting Christ, it might seem liek woah yay anth believer. But then its really that touch from God that matters, i believe, i noe of some ppl who accept christ cos they felt compelled to. I dun wan that to happen again. I wan my sisters to really b touch by God before they make their decisions and all. So yeah. Thats all. Pray for them yeah. =].

bad day...

2007-06-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

I had a real bad day todae. Im kidna sad i guess. Something happened earlier in the morning which i dun wanna mention and i ended up reaching school at like 830-840? When chem started at like 8. I was like OMG! But too bad la no choice. Anyway ms teh gave me extra time, abt 20mins more to complete my paper. But i juz didnt had it la. I cudnt really focus and half the time i was really panicky and all. Trust God lor. Thats the only thing that i can and want to do right now. Theres no point being sad i guess. Chem was suppose to b my best subject, at least the onli subject that i cud understand, and then this had to happen. Mayb God is trying to do something? I dunno. What broke my heart most were the things that happened later. I dun wanna mention it here on the blog, painful sia.

Anyway met deb n nadzeeya to study at tpy coffee bean. They always say i tok alot la, but i think they all talk more den me today. Haha. Then b4 long, samuel came and join us, and deb sim n nadzeeya left. Then while studying i actually fell aslp la. Super shiok la! But then must study so yah lor, no choice, we studied until like 8? And then soh haofeng came to join us for dinner at kfc den we zao home after that. N guess wad now? I cant find my econs notes on eos and survival of small firms. Trust God! =]

survey...

2007-06-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

Ok its like midyears rite now, but i juz cant seem to find the motivation to study and guess whose online to start asking me to do weird surveys? Haha Christine Koh is seriously too free. Haha. So anyway she made me do this survey, the results are kinda true and she wans me to post it here on the blog so here goes:

The idea of togetherness, love, warmth, tenderness and mutual understanding fascinates you but you seem to be embarrassed by the thought of allowing this to appear openly. It would appear that you employ a cautious exploratory tactic in the pursuit of this objective, making sure that you are neither irrevocably committed nor found out.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.

The tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to physical and/or mental frustration. It would appear that you are not appreciated and as a consequence, the situation is most disagreeable. You seek personal recognition and the appreciation of others to compensate for the lack of like minded people with whom to ally yourself. You would like to surrender and merge with others but your inherent self-restraint makes it difficult for you to open up. This disturbs you as you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You want to be liked, admired and appreciated for yourself.

It is strange that the anxiety that you are experiencing at this time is of your own making simply because of your desire to be respected by your fellow man and with those whom you work with. You are not satisfied. The normal congenial 'you' is becoming quite introverted. This is becoming increasingly more obvious because you seem to shy away from participating in everyday activities. You are refusing to allow yourself to become involved or to participate with others and it is the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of your problems.

Thats it. Anyway im inviting my 2 sis for sat's movie thingy. I hoep nth screws up =]

people need a God...

2007-06-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

more n more each day, the need for a generation to need a God becomes so much more real to us, me at least. Its like one event after another showing me how vulnerable life actually is, how fragile life can be. Like gabriel. He passed away without knowing who Jesus is? The great man who came to save and deliver us all. Its kinda sad. And today i realised how caijing's fren juz died during some stupid triathlon. Luckily for him, she thinks he's a believer, so mayb theres some hoep that. Haiz.

Anyway its exams tmr. I think ill leave it to God, with all the studying i did, dunno wad ill get. But i hav faith in Him. Haha.

new skin...

2007-06-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

OK i decided to take all the things about LG down. Im not backsliding yeah, juz that its kinda tiring n lazy to post n i think i lost the drive to post abt these wonderful ppl. =p. Anyway i decided to revamp the blog, been awhile since i last posted and i think this blogskin shud last for a couple of weeks? I dunno. Anyway juz dun bother abt all the previous posts cos its like so very long ago. im no longer emo ok. dun anyhow think. Im not lying. So yeah juz believe that im rid of being emo. =].

Anyway we had like the prayer meeting thing but we really watched the movie, abt facing our giants, instead of sharing testimonies and all. It was a great show, and i had to constantly think of how the show related to God and all. Its like wow u noe. Cos there was this part where the coach was trying to motivate this guy in the team and how he kept tellign him not to give up and perservere, that really encouraged me. Its like wow! Cos when i tot of wad God is trying to tell us, it strikes me that God is liek the coach and we're like that kid whom the coach is pushing. And then we're like always trying our best n we always wanna giv up but God is there pushing us! Shouting at us if we decide to giv up and all. But the diff is that God is a still small voice while the people of the world are the ones shouting. And then i start to think abt the times i gave up, how i listened to the crowd n stop doing wad God really wans me to. I feel sad really sad n bad. Like how cud i, u noe? Like how can i actually lose sight of God's miraculous plan for me. And then abt gabriel, how can i actually forget his impact on my life? I juz feel that i wasted God's time and i wanna do soemthing rigth again. Theres nth in this world more important then the almighty Father.

I wanted to leave after the show. Didnt feel liek staying for prayer at first, but somehow i did. I dunno y, it must b God's conviction. and then we started praying. I started tearing, i cried. I prayed n i ask God stuff. Lotsa stuff and i begin to wonder. I tot to myself wad i shud pray abt. And when it came to revival in our own lives, I felt liek God was slapping me both ways cos i always neglected n took for granted the ppl closest n nearest ard me. It isnt abt the ppl in east timor n the ppl in the hospitals nor isit the street kids that we shud worry abt firt. We need to start from our own backyards. Our family n frenz. i asked God wad wud it b like if Jesus did came back. And a most scary tot came to my mind. I didnt wan that to happen. Not in a million years. And i prayed. I remembered how moses interceded for the ppl. If i got that rite at least. And then i tot if God can do that to moses years ago, He can do that today too. I ask God not for renewed passion cos i was filled wif a hunger n desire for revival for a lost generation. What i ask was for time and greater desperation. Cos theres not much time left to Jesus' 2nd coming. i dun wan that tot that ran in my mind to come thru. People please pray for revival cos its the scariest n worst thing on earth not to happen. the people need a God.

i think im weird typing all these today. like lester's gone crazy abt his religion and i hav this really bad feelin that ill lose my zeal when i wake up tmr or when i go back studying, or facing up to reality like back in school. But then if i dun type this out, i feel liek i wud be shortchanging God abt this impactful incident! i wanan honour God in my life juz like wad that coach did. Help me God~!

looking back...

2007-04-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

Im being emo. For a good reason i guess. I just went to teresa's blog, and maybe cos my hand itchy or soemthing, i just scrolled all the way down and saw wad teresa posted like back in 2004 and all. As i scrolled up, i saw all the pics of teresa when she was in RCC, her entries, blah blah. Then i saw pics of ASAP, and then pics of POWER MNM's first ever life group outing at cafe cartel. I can still remember it was the last day of our O levels, and we were celebrating shan's and seck's bdae. I was still suaning stanley la, that his paper hasnt ended yet. Lol. And the stuff that happened after that, i think i would rather not say.

I tot of how LG was liek in the past, i tot of how i wud go out wif teresa n ben seck, liek after svc and all, at novena square, waiting for teresa's mom to come fetch her home, den me n seck wud go home. How teresa used to always buy ban mian n nth else, n i started to follow the rest of LG, eating the cai fan at foodcourt. Lol. Then there was this time we bought a tub of ice cream from cold storage and we took the food court spoons to eat the ice cream. We got caught by that sickening manager. but it was fun. But now, we only frequent united square food court for dinner. Life has changed huh? Lol.

I tot of how life was 2 years back, how church was so exciting then, not that it isnt right now, but that first love is gone, its liek a fleeting feeling, its there sometimes of cos, but when u try to grab it with your bare hands, it juz drifts further away from you. I wonder how much i hav grown spiritually. I guess there must indeed be at least that minimal growth, but is that ever enuff? I wonder. LG has gone through transformations. Major ones, the people for one hav changed definitely. The usuals in the past wud def include teresa, but she's no longer here now. How sharon used to be floating in n out on alternate saturdays. And now, she seems to be liek juz anth new comer. Hmm. The changes, the addition of people in POWER M&M is good of cos, but then i do yearn for that feeling in the past.

Life is becomign so real to me these days. Its like getting harsher, much more cynical and in fact, colder. Its liek stepping into a whole new dimension and the pressure is coming against me from all sides. Life in the past seems so much better isnt it? That innocence in the past. All the laugther and more. Hmm, i hate the monotonous life and the mundanities in life. But like wad amanda said, i guess we juz havta cling more onto God.

Ok i think im emo enuff le. Smile and pray for a bttr tmr. =].

God reigns...

2007-04-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

God, You win.

distance...

2007-04-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

Dont you c? Theres a gap between us now. You may not have realised it but i do. The thing is that i have been mroe concerned about the both of us since the beginning, or at least somewhere near the beginning. Sometimes its you, soemtimes its me, but no matter wad it is, its tiresome, and i dun wanna b the wan whos giving in all the time. I noe u have tried, but isit really the best that you can do? Or isit juz superficial becos u noe that im one that easily forgives n forget. What must i do? What can i do to salvage the situation? I dun wan it to end up liek this. I noe this is like so wrong and all but i just cant control myself. I need help. Im serious.

reflections...

2007-04-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i blogged properly, haha the last post doesnt count obviously, i was merely venting my frustrations. Haha. Anyway i got my new pair of specs todae, my sis chose it for me, and i think it looks weird on me, but yeah no choice la my mom buy le so must wear ah, 80 bucks please. i can do alot of stuff wif that kind of money. =]. Haha.

I havent been doing much deep-thinking recently, have been struggling with alot of issues, and something that gerald tan told me kinda shock me. He said i look kinda stress for the past few months. I didnt noe i look stress la. Jialat, i try to hide oso cnanot hide. Lol. No la, its juz that life's been harsher, its becoming more "real" to me each day, and im really struggling to keep myself afloat in my spiritual walk.

Someone in school told me something yesterday that really shocked me too. This classmate told me soemthing that really made me think la. Like, it started to make me ponder about what i have been doin in sch church family n all for the past months or so, how i hav demonstrated n behaved infront of them and all. And then i compare it wif how i was in the past, i guess there must hav been a change, but i dunno wad else to do. Its really complicated and i dun wan the most drastic situation to take place. Sianz la. Why life so difficult?

And then i suddenly became emo, u noe when u think abt such stuff u turn emo? Haha. So anyway i was listing all the bad traits n stuff abt me that was negative, and i came to the conclusion that i sucked! Lol. Yes, thats how u feel when ure emo, but then wad struck me next caught me by surprise. I suddenly tot abt how God loved me, and though i sucked, lol, God still lvoes me for who i am, like wadeva that i do, wadeva i am, wadeva that will happen, He still loves me and cares for me, so why shudnt i be happy? I should hold onto God as tightly as possible and NEVER think abt letting go. Weird isnt it? Lol.

I really wanna be as enthusiastic for God as possible, but circumstances and situations tend to drag me down. People out there pray for me yeah? I really wanna keep running this race for God. =].

angry...

2007-04-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

I totally hate it when i try to be nice and some people can just heck care la. like they dun even bother to listen to what im tryin to say and instead they can give me sarcastic remarks like to jack me and then try to make me look like im in the wrong noe. Im trying to be nice n all and yet i get jacked instead. Well done isnt it! Its super frustrating and really really irritating la. I waited a whole week for the weekends to come and this is how it has to end up. Like wow! Well done lor! I totally love my life. Yippeee! Woohoo~! Im just trying to be nice to SOME PEOPLE and one sentence, ok lets make it sound worse, afew words can actually ruin my entire day, wait thats underestimating the devastation i felt, its more like an entire's week of anticipation. I totally hate this la. I must definitely stop irritating SOME PEOPLE or else i simply look liek a retard yeah?

As if he thinks he very popular liek that wor! Must book appointment then can go out wif him liek that. Big shot la! Everyone else who dun fit into your scheledue should juz rot n die isit? Everything oso wan it ur way, other ppl way oso cannot... Best lor! Sianz! Hai me go out alone and still can say who ask me to go out alone. Wah u dun wan go out den u drag the only other free person along u expect me to go out with who? Holy Spirit ah? So big shot must book appointment den dun go out lor. Dun disturb u anymore so big deal mah, waste of my life some more! Wah i felt so sad la almost cried sia still cna jack me leh. SOME PEOPLE just rock my world!

Anyway many thanks to SOMEONE, i ended up having a really good time with people who actually appreciate my company. Thanks Qi Bin and Rachell who kept me company throughout the last few hrs of today. If not, easter would be really horrible and oh did i mention its all because of that SPECIAL SOMEONE who enabled all this to happen. I REALLY thank you. I will stop irritating you from now onwards. Promise! I try to be nice after that oso get jacked. Im liek the smartest person on earth!

Anyway lets move on and not live in the horrible things that happen to me today. I met up wif qibin to study at waffletown and guess who we saw that? Ok i did mention rachell's name so yeah nvm. Rachell was studying at waffletown and it was really fun to study wif them la. Anyway after abt 2 hrs of studying, me and qibin decided to go a short break. We came back and changed our studying location since we were invited to get out of waffletown. We went to the best place on earth to study, as quoted by rachell lau. And we continued studyin there since. It's really funny studying there la. And everytime the lift reached the 4th floor, all of us would anticipate "her" arrival. Just so that u ppl dun get confuse... SOMEONE as mentioned above in this entry is totally irrelevant to "her", yups. So anyway we were laughin and joking while we were studyin of cos. Guess who we saw? Yes! Her! It was really funny la since liek all 5 of us just stoned for liek afew seconds. Lol. And then we continued to joke and then soon after the torture began.

To make this very clear, im not against rachell's aunty's restaurant food at all. Honest. But then it gets abit annoying when we hav too much food. Like the 3 of us were eating, ok actually onli 2 cos rachell was running abt more than half the time we were at the restaurant. And let me tell u wad we had. We had each a whole big bowl of noodles, 2 "baskets" of xiaolongbao, 1 plate containing a dozen "guotie", a GIGANTIC fish and last but not least crab. Mind you people, its onli me and qibin eating it. Thanks to rachell we had to finish the whole lot of it, and by the end of the whole meal me and qibin were screaming for help. Lol. The bill totaled to abt 70 for the 3 of us while reylere and her class of abt 13 ppl's bill totaled 160. Well done rigth rachell? Lol. But no matter wad thanks so much for the food =] =] =].

Ok ppl i gtg tok to samuel ng now. At least sam appreciates me not liek SOMEBODY. Ok bb. =]

sat svc

2007-04-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

Today's svc was great. I was really touched by the sermon regarding the parable of the lsot son though i have heard it liek for a thousand times already. I really have no idea why but yeah somehow it did. I was especially touched when they sang this song for altar call "When God ran". The lyrics juz touch my heart and i actually teared la! Im tryin to figure out which line is the best but every line just seems to speak to the very core of my heart.

Ok go listen ok everyone and the lyrics are as follows:

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome
Lord Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run

Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me

I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran

lessons learnt...

2007-04-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

i learnt 2 lessons todae. its a really complicated story so i shall not elaborate but i will roughly describe what i have learnt.

Lesson number1: People of this world cant see the truths and tend to be blinded by the things of this world and rely too much on their past experiences or others' past experiences to deal with issues in their lifes. God's way is the only right way and since Jesus is the Truth and the Life, and i have chosen Jesus in my life. I must dedicate my life to help people see. =].

Lesson number2: God isnt just someone who punishes people and acts liek Mr Tan Jek Suan or Michael Tan or Isaac Lim. He is not a disciplinary master but a Father. He loves us and cares for us. He wants to understand us better and wants to know wadeva we are going through. God is my Father i now know. My life is in good hands and i will love Him with all i am because He first loved me so.

Thank God for He is God and thank God for James and Samuel! =]

screwed...

2007-04-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

im retyping this entry for the 3rd time now... because i dun wanna giv ppl the wrong impressions that im emo. Haha. But seriously im going through a pretty rough patch in my life right now... Im going downhill spiritually because of certain reasons.. i need Someone to help me pull me through...

lol...

2007-03-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

I think im pretty weird these days... Its like im becoming emo even though i know im not emo... liek when i was emo previously i knew i was emo but now that feeling of knowing im emo is gone. Haha. So weird liek its some sort of chim-alogy liek that... =]. Anyway im rather happy with my life right now... school's starting to get really really horrible and i cant wait for saturday and sunday to come.. more of sat actually cos sunday means next day must go to school.. Saturday rawks! Yah so anywya my dear friends in school, please do not think im psychotic or wad.. im juz being erm... emo-like-feeling-but-im-not-really-emo... Haha. Its super funny... Anyway spiritually its been a real roller coaster... im up n down sometimes though so yah its rather weird la that kinda feeling.. but i guess i can only perservere... no turning back now.. haha.. ok im seriously being weird.. lol... okok i shall end here or else ppl might really shun me cos im being psychotic. Wahahahaha... cya all ppl... im weird n psychotic...

preparing myself...

2007-03-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

U noe how many times when we try to break out of a bad habit, trying to escape from our bondages, or merely trying to do out best not to fall into sin or succumb into temptation n fail? N then we come to God, with tears in our eyes asking God to help us to stand up against all this. I realised we shouldnt wait for things to happen n den seek God, seek God first in everything and then u wont fall into sins so easily n so often. Haha. I feel enlightened todae... Lol... Ok God bless to all those who still hav ct's... lol.. =p Jiayou!

everything to me...

2007-03-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst forA
nd the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst forA
nd the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

the burden...

2007-03-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

I wanna be desperate to see soemthing in my life move! I wanna be on fire i wanna be passionate! I want to be someone beyond who i am right now. I dun wanna be confined in that small area that im stuck in i wanna b free i wanna do magnificent things and things that will glorify Him! I wanna b someone that can really be truly righteous and spirit-filled! I dun wanna b a hypocrite and offer onli lip-service. I wanna be someone more than wad i am right now. I wanna feel the burden and wanna be able to acknowledge it. No more stupid and lame excuses but really getting to the point and doing something really good for the people around me. Teach me how to and show me the way. Enable and empower me to hav the courage and perserverance to do all these. Dont allow me to stay in wherever i am right now, bring me out of that miry clay and transform me. I need that touch once again...

common tests...

2007-02-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

havent been posting lately... thinking alot... n of cos theres the common tests coming up. sianz. i need to study i totally dun udnerstand certain topics especially those in j1. haha. dunno y... anyway i think i need to buck up i must get a's for my alevels or else im screwed. haha. okok i gtg le cya all ppl. =]

regret...

2007-02-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

one of teh worse feelings to experience is to regret abt something that u've done. Liek how many of us feel so stupid or feel so down for doin soemthing in the past that has totally changed ur life now. so many incidents hav taken palce in my life n yet i cant seem to forget abt that 1 very incident taht shook my life completely, even rite now im suffering from the repercussiosn of it n i cant seem to let go. I try, but its hard i tell u...

den recently i feel so stupid for doin something i did last yr, its like i dun even noe whether i can even classify as stupid, but it was my choice no amtter wad. i seem to b really regretting it in my heart, n i wish that the current situation im in wud change. its awkward i tell u. i wish positions cud change or even bttr, time wud juz go back so that i wud not hav done all the foolish things, i really regret wad i did. =(.

on a side note i think wad i told randall on wed is quite cool, "giv ur gf 3 roses... 1 to signify the past.. 1 to signify the present... n 1 last one for the future..."

valentine's day...

2007-02-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

Its vdae everybody so yeah heres wishing all of u a happy valentine's day! =]

Alot of stuff happened in sch today. Im so sorry rachell i didnt mean for anything to happen to the balloon. Really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really sorry. T_T. =(.
Also, there are some other stuff tugging at my heart these days, i dunno wad has triggered it but the tots juz lingers in my head n refuses to go away. Haiz. Im getting super emo this few weeks.

I really wish to spend time with God in this period of time. I really dun wan this season to juz pass me by like so many b4. I wanna draw back to God. I wanna b a Godly person. Really doin my very best to please God but then there so many things pulling me away. I need the perseverance, the mental determination to do all things man. Haiz. Im getting really emo this days n i really feel that i need to do something abt it. So yeah please forgive me everyone if i happen to look like some psychotic emo kid recently. I dun wan it to happen.

So thats it for this year's vday. Enjoy urself people =].

running away...

2007-02-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

nvr ever try or even think of running away from Him cos He will work in some mysterious way and get back to you. He works in ways which we cannot understand, fathom or comphrehend. Just learn to surrender your very all and submit to His every command.

revelations...

2007-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

God spoke to me today.. He spoek right through the deepest core of my heart.. He spoke with such firmness and assurance, yet at the same time, i could actually feel his tender warmth and concern inside me. He asked me to forgive someone, someone that had made me who i am, and y i had to face with all this problems i hav to deal with. He asked me to forgive Myself.

It felt strange definitely... but at the same time, i had this inclination that told me that i knew that i was angry wif myself all along. Yeah.. its weird i noe, but i just cant find the right words to fit the way i felt. Haha. I knew i always hated somebody... Like i noe that i really detest a certain someone that had screwed up my life. I tried to find substitutes as to who this person was cos i nvr ever did noe exactly or i cudnt exactly pin point this particular individual. It took me a long time, but just an instance for God to show me who that person was. It was diff i guess. Its liek how do u even forgive urself? It puzzles me but i guess onli thru God will i noe the answer. Haha. Im in a happy but sad mood today. I really dunno y. Dun ask me. Haha. Ok i think i bttr get gg! Cya all ppl... =]

orientation...!

2007-01-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

OMG! I juz realized that i totally left out everything and anything on the whole orientation. Haha. I think im retarded lar! Or mayb cos i was too emo, den nvr really go n think about orientation. So anyway since i udn wanna lose such a happy memory of it, i shall blog really briefly abt it. =].

Orientation was way cool! Liek IG15.. they were liek the weirdest bunch of ppl i hav ever seen. When we were together, the quiet ones dun tok, den some of them look so ah beng so ah lian-ish. When we broke up after 3 days, those uber quiet ones suddenly ask me for outings and all n showed their true colours. Especially joel, wei xian and msia boi. 3 of u all ah... super jialat. Anyway so yah, but i gotta admit they were really fun ppl to hang out wif noe. Liek though they try to suan me and stuff liek that, but they always fail de n they always jack themselves. =p. Haha.

1T22 was oso anth awesome experience. The class was more enthu this time, besides Jaslyn who was both in 15 and 22, no one else had the best facils of the whole orientation. =]. T22 was kinda divided i guess, harder to ask them to do stuff, but def hav nicer ppl and they warm up much easier den 15. N oh! Their cheers though abt the same standard as 15, but at least tehy were uber loud lar. 15 so disgraceful lar! Haha. Kiddin. So anyway yah lor... it was really fun and all, im really sorry he yong for dropping u in the water at kalland dragonboating that time. ECP was fun rite? Walk so much get so many poitns but i oso dunno wad the poitns were used for in the end. Haha. Paiseh, but i guess all of us had fun! Should break the cliques lar, liek that where got fun? Must fix mroe together yeah? Haha.

N how can i forget the other 2 facils wif me, jess n deb! SUPER nice facils i tell u, i mean it real sarcastically in case u didnt realise. Haha. Jokin. Yah nice people wif really outgoin characters, esp jess la, can b cheerleader lar. Haha. Wah den jess super sweet lar, write card giv me wor. But nvm lar, i use telepathy tell u can le. Haha. And woah deb u got handsome n rich bf ah! Pro liao lor... Haha. Dun worry i wudnt spread ard de. Oops i think i juz did, haha. IG 15 & 1T22 cudnt hav been such good classes without anyone of u =].

N oh yah for winning the best house. KYUUKA! It was definitely worth it lar, all the weird cheers that we came up wif, all the sarcasm n criticism from the other 3 weird houses. I think we deserve it all. Haha. We will rule CJ! Haha. O n for all the frenz i made in KYUUKA, we all did a great job lar. Shi Jie must b feelign ultra happy that we use his KYUUKA-LICIOUS cheer. Haha. So funny lar Shi Jie, even after orientation oso entertain me everyday wif his daily updates of she who must not be named. =].

Ok thats it, im sorry ppl. I did try my best to giv the brief-est summary i cud get, didnt noe it wud b this long. Haha. Ok ppl remind me abt facilitating for O2. Haha. =].

forgiveness...

2007-01-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

to inability to forgive someone... as i have realised... is really a combination of utter disappointment and anger. It makes u boil whenever u think of it. No matter wad u try to do or try to cover up... it juz doesnt go away, but instead leaves an even worse aftertaste. I have been experiencing serious emo-ness lately and it doesnt seem to go away. it grows even more and more as the day goes by. Im afraid to be "that" emo cos i dunno how to handle it, but i guess i cant do anything. Haiz.

I wonder wads the real reason behind this sudden emoness... isit really cos it hurts and opens the deepest scars in my heart? Or is there soemthing else? I wonder if im being angry cos i am already guilty in a particular manner? Isit really the inability to forgive? Or isit juz a facade to show my incompetence in inter personal relationships? I wonder how long this would last and i really question the ultimate aim of my anger? Sometimes i feel that im on this twisted track where i noe its all wrong... however i wishfully hope for an alternative ending and hope that my inner desires are met. But then the cold hard facts of this cruel world juz slaps me across my face. And then im left all alone again.

I feel so abandoned by the people around me and wonder how long this would last. I cried or at least i almost did when i realized that its juz another de javu and everything's happening all over again. Maybe one day ill solve this mystery, how i manage to fall down n pick myself up again and again over the years. Cos it hurts to "smile and look forward to the future" in hope of silver linings along the way. Heck to everything thats screwing my life. I feel so imcompetent in handling situations and i have such little discipline and so little faith in wadeva im doing.

U noe how irritating it is to do soemthing in hope that situation A would happen even though u noe situation B is always how it turns out to be, and when situation B occurs again, u feel so useless and feel liek slapping urself for even wishing for something so impossible. I feel liek telling ________________ that i hate u! I seriously do! I wish u juz dun interfere so much cos u dunno wads goin on. U c things from ur own point of view and try to do things that u think will benefit me but im sorry, ur juz pouring salt unto my wounds. I hate you! and if u think im refering to someone in my family, u are so very wrong...

forward looking...

2007-01-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

i think my previous entry was abit too emo la. Haha. Dunno leh, i think its really in me to be emo. But i dun wanna b emo leh. Not fun de, must think of soemthing to stop this emoness. Haha. So anyway its been abt a week? i guess that i last blog, been really busy wif facilitating n its really fun i guess, besides the part that im really really tired becos of it too. Lol. I dun wanna go back to having lessons, but i really do miss the class n all. Dunno lar, slowly wait lor.

Anyway sat's svc, we sang this song entitled "Jesus, Lover of my soul". I think its really cool, especially the chorus part. The erm "I love You, I need You". I think soemtiems we are too caught up wif ourselves that we tend to neglect God. Its weird i guess, that though we all know that we need God desperately, but we always try to run away from Him. I need Him to slap me back to my senses. I think i juz received it though, haha. Something did happen awhile back which really affected me ALOT, but i guess like wad seck said, surrender everything unto Him and hopefully everything will be alrite. =]. Wadeva it is, i hope that in 2007, i really accomplish wadeva God has set me to do. =] Nitez ppl... =] =] =].

new year

2007-01-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

ill try my best not to think abt it... but i juz cant seem to do that...

i tend to fill my life with useless excuses n other stuff so as to numb myself from things of this world. I wonder why do i even choose to do stuff that make me so painful inside? I wonder why i dread that word which i hate so much? Why do i even wan to embark on stuff that seem so alienated from me. I wonder how mant in this world actually care for me truely? Isit so hard for people to really live happily in this world? Why isit that "and they live happily ever after" happens onli in fairy tales? Why does this world seem so dreary when i hav so much to do? So many to help/save? So much to work on? I wonder why i even let myself continue?

New year isnt all that happy for me... Life isnt that happy for me at this very moment. Home seems colder den usual, n that tiny bit of warmth that im looking for encompasses wif so much complications. Why cant life b simple? Or isit complicated onli cos of how we see it n how we look at it? Why shud people b happy when a baby is born? For that onli means one more person waiting to suffer in this miserable life. Im tired den sad den angry den desperate den finally thinkin n laughing at myself for being such a fool. Tears arent that strange to me anymore. They hav become my bed companions in this few weeks. Wadeva the devil has done, i guess he has really suceeded. Though i try to break free of it, but still a whoel lot of me prefers leading that kind of life im living in. I dun wanna suffer liek this anymore. God help me!

I'll try not to cry to sleep tonite... gd nite people God bless and hav a really happy new year.

the greatest gift of all...

2006-12-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

I got the best gift this Christmas.

Merry Christmas to all of you. =]. Its really nice to have spent this christmas really meaningfully todae, church svc was good and so was the food. Haha =]. Elgin's parents rawks lar! Haha. So anyway todae was just liek any normal day but it has enabled me to see thigns that i have not really open my eyes to.

God has taught me lessons. IMPORTANT lessons... very applicable to my life. Not those that u can pick up any day but its really lessons that one may nvr encounter in their entire life.

U think u ppl are suffering? Den compare it to what Jesus did! Compare it to those of ppl outside there who are cryin out for God to save them and deliver them! Nothing can compare to the thigns that Jesus suffered! If you think girlfriends are big issues? WAKE UP! Its time to move on n grow up! If you think results are big issues? WAKE UP! Its time to buck up and stop grumbling over such stuff! If you think you are facign the biggest crisis of your life? Look at the people around you. With smiley faces they look at you, but who ever noes the hurt pain n inner turmoil they experience inside?! God has seriously tot me stuff that comes once in a lifetime todae on Christ's bdae. Ill be prayign for all of you my friends. Cos what we need most is not for a happy marriage, a luxurious lifestyle, successful career, but its really salvation. Salvation from Christ.

BREAKTHROUGH my dear church friends, for the time has come for all of us to gear up to fight against the devil. Slap his face i tell u. Push him away, i dun care whatever u do, juz dun be caught in the same sins as u hav been struggling with since u were a Christian and dun develop new ones! The devil has taken over our lives and destroyed it so much that its time to stop him. Crush him! As the bible says, Jesus has won the victory long ago, so liekwise we will not succumb to his commands.

For my frenz in school, if you are reading this, if u think im crazy, i think i really am. Im crazy for God! I wanna do things that are impossible to the eyes of u people. I wanna be the light in CJC! U mock me laugh at me or wadsoever. Ill pray for all of u. I promise! Until the day that salvations come in the hundreds n thousands, i will not stop praying! I love u guys thats y im doin these. Its not for me but for u n im serious abt it. I wanna see u guys saved!

Lastly, to the person that helped me so much, i think i broke ur trust since i promise that i will try to keep it private n all, but its juz so overwhelming that i need to tell everybody. I will defintiely honour my promise to u so press on yeah? Jiayou for the battle has juz onli begun and we will NOT retreat cos Jesus has alredi won the battle for us! Thank you VERY MUCH for this life-changing experience.

JoinT...

2006-12-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

OMG! JoinT is liek the best event on earth la ppl. Those who miss it, its too bad, but dun worry, my church got xmas services this whole weekend. =]. Haha. =]. So anyway today was a good day i guess though it was somewhat disappointing at various occasions, but all in all, i learn alot i guess.

I started the day doing outreach. It was super tiring la, me and jeremy (from swat team) went around town area, near orchard mrt tryin to get people, i met soem people, foo hui yi was there too, havent seen her since long time ago, yah anyway tried to get them to come down for JoinT lor. Its super cool please. However, i was too tired la, didnt really do much, den i went down to meet jo n song at far east supposedly at 215. Was suppose to eat lunch n reach tanjong pagar at 305. But due to some hiccups here n dere, the 3 of us arrived at tanjong pagar at 340. I was suepr late lar, i hope vinay's not angry wif me. Paiseh. Then i leave the rest at tanjong pagar to the road junction to do ushering while i ask them to head down to dbs auditorium. =]. But then they so stubborn la, ask them go tell them i will tok to toi rong cheng n chris, but they dun wan listen, in the end they waste time. Haha. So anyway they finally headed down to the auditorium while i ushered ppl til 5. =].

We were outside the auditorium then must ren alot cos the malays making alot of noise n then liek disturbing the rest n all lar. Haiya, wasted alot of time n make ppl fed up onli those people. I dunno why they liek that la, people book the auditorium for u giv u dinner and all den disturb disturb. So bad lar these people. Very inconsiderate, so anyway i was made security so that dose irriating people wud keep quiet la, but i so nice wan how to shoo ppl away. So i ended up qutie useless lor. After that i went on walking ard, watching the testimonies shared by the ppl and abit of ps ben's preaching then i went down for some briefing n time of prayer.

After that i was supposed to go do counselling n all. I didnt wanna talk to those who responded la, cos rite i dun think i ready to speak to them yet, so i went on to talk to those who didnt really responded. Talked to the 8 of them who came, but i guess u all nvr really feel anytihng lar, so i walk away lor. Haha. I den went on to talk to sharon n honngda and spoke to the guy beside her, who oso happens to be clarence's fren. =]. Qutie cool. But dunno him leh, say he believe God and all but oso believe in Buddhism n all. So i guess i will let God handle him lar. Then i walk ard tok abit to chris n joel den went on to speak to Leslie's fren. Quite hard leh. He ask the qns quite hard to answer and also the stare he gives rite, makes people heart skip a beat. Haha. So anyway after that he still nvr feel anything so i move on lar since he oso wanna eat dinner. After that i cannot find him le.

Outside, there was a whole commotion la, met up wif the 8 of them den talked to them n all. Realized how violent toi is n how poor thing rc is or how good story tellers they are. Haha. =x. Anyway i spoke to the rest la, dun really noe how they feel la, but all agreed the food was great. Then after awhiel they oso zao. Then i mingled with the rest lor, they were tokin to this guy n how he said cheryl look liek korean gal so cute. Everyone laughign and all then got this whole hoo ha abt it. Next was the one-clap created by the cedars. =]. Quite cool lar, can be LG game le. Haha. Then after that got debrief by daryl n all. Then go home.

I guess it was a good day la, i learn alot liek i said earlier. I guess God taught me that its about the quality n not the quantity. In alot of areas la, then also like i guess its quite applicable to my life and all. I think God is really good lor, i hope this JoinT thing, though onli managed to get abt 10 ppl? At least soemthing wud b palnted in the hearts of the rest lor. Haha. Anyway it isnt anytihng bad lar, let "nature take its course." =]. Tomorrow i gotta work, need to go do QT soon and sleep. =] =] =]. Nitez ppl.

JOINT!!!

2006-12-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

OMG ITS ONLY ONE DAY TO JOINT!!! I love JoinT please... everyone please come yeah? Haha. Even if u wasnt invite pelase call my hp i invite u straigth away. Haha. Im so excited im on leave tmr! YAYNESS! Haha. Ok im super tired now ppl bb. =] =] =].

working life...

2006-12-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

I started goin to work recently and i guess its really syressful n irritating! Like OMG! Why is time passing so slowly kinda thing. Haha. But somehow thinking of the pay at the end, it makes it all worth it. Lol. However, this money is gonna be used by me to pay for development fund and xmas presents n to clear up debts, so i think its all goin to be spent up within the week i get it. Lol. Anyway im working as a telemarketer, u noe the kidn who calls people up to get them to buy their products sorta thing. =]. So anyway my boss is serene's cuz, quite pro. Lol. Then in between, theres this guy called marcus, im sorry but i dun really liek him. Haha. Dunno him leh, he gives me the i dun really liek u kinda feeling. I dunno wht too so dun ask me. =]. So anyway its really boring actually to call these people up cos u nvr noe whether u migth get to the person u wanna tok to, but i guess thats all part of the job. Some times u get really nice ppl, while times u get those HORRIBLY rude people. I really cant stand those rude people lar, they hear my voice oso can tell i just promoting oso must treat me so cruelly. Haiz. Oh and anyway on the first day of my work, i switched off directly n indirectly abt 20 coms, dun ask me how i do it, i rather not think abt it, that really made me wanan quit my job lar. First day noe. Lol. Haha. Ok lar i gotta go sleep early le, tmr will be a LONG day. Good luck to people rehearsing for JoinT! Pray Hard sia... =] =] =].

musing...

2006-12-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

Im irritated, pek chek, annoyed, frustrated, u name it, i feel it! I cant take this anymore. Its irritating enough so stop maglining me, things arent the way taht u think it is. You're seriously putting me down! And i cant stand it. Stop telling everyone else that you're right and im wrong, stop telling everybody taht its you who's the victim when im the real innocent party here. Its bad enuff that u are annoyign me, yet u still have to go ard tellign every living soul out there. Hey! I got feelings noe. Im not a dumb idiot where u can dump all ur garbage at. Its sickening and tiring. But i still stick to the agreement that we had. Im going to stick to it so lighten up yeah? Try not to get so aggitated and suspicious ever so frequently. You think u need space? Well i think im the one who needs it the most. Dont think u noe everything cos u're not. Im goin to live my life happily wif or without u. Try ur best to put me down, find excuses for urself, but its not gonna work anymore. From this day, im gonna do something that's right, not juz for u n ur future, but for me as well. I wish u all the best in wadeva u do, cos i dun really noe wads installed for u if u remain like that forever. Good luck! =] =] =].

it makes me wonder...

2006-12-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

Im beginning to think of my life. How miraculous and wonderful the way my life has been planned by God. My salvation... Growing spiritually... Overcoming setbacks... Everything has been so awesomely bless by the Lord. I really need God in my life, to overcome problems, solving them and to pray for my personal well being and the salvation of family and friends. The need for God is so real to me.

And then i start to think about the people in church, my class, council, old friends and my family. Everything seems like its going smoothly. However, there's just this feeling within me that makes me feel uncomfortable.

I guess i got my answer today. It kinda hurt, but i guess its the truth. I really wish for an alternative solution our of it, but its all too late now. Its hard to change certain things, especially bonds that have been forged long ago. Some conversations turn sour, while others flourished. I guess that's all just part of my life.

I need God, more than I ever needed Him before, more than anything i have ever yearned for.

LG...

2006-12-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

Today's LG was perhaps one of the best LG sessions that we ever had. It was really touching i must say, and it kinda make me feel really bad for nto putting in my 100% to this LG and to the people in it. I guess its too late now to salvage anything, no point crying over spilt milk, so i onli havta look forward to the comign year and a new LG.

We started as per normal, i had avp duty so i went earlier. Scare me lar avp duty, the grey box spoil den i tot i make the hwoel thing spoil, in the end i realsie not my fault den i felt suepr heng. Lol. So anyway after that we had worship n all, den ps ben asked us all to split into LG and had this short moment of sharing la. About who imapcted u the most n stuff like that, from LG level and ministry level. So we went one round n blah blah blah blah. The next question was how we cud improve the LG or soemthing liek ythat, i guess we all gave quite a number of suggestions, but its really harder to put things into practice as compared to suggesting it. Yupz. So after that the 2 leaders, wai yin and jeremy liek told us they were goin to wash our feets, like seen from in the bible when Jesus washed His disciples feet. I was qutie taken aback and like didnt really wan jeremy to wash my feet la. It felt super wrong and like i didnt feel like he shud do it? Dunno lar. Haha. So anyhow we went thru wif the washigng feet procedure and i felt kinda convicted and all abt not doin much in LG and in my personal spiritual life. I guess wad jem n seck said was rite lar. I really havta focus n set my priorities right in my life. If i hav chosen to stick to God, i shud really follow thru wif it, not becos of obligations, but bcos i really wan to. That "ceremony" almost made me teared la, but i managed to hold it back.

After that, ps ben n sis lilian went on to wash the leaders feet, it was certainly heart warming, liek wad ps ben said, he rarely goes ard telling ppl i love u n sort. Haha. It wud seem weird if he really did. Lol. So the next event that happened was that we prayed for jeremy while ps ben washed his feets. It was really sad lar. LAST LG. I had this feeling like if onli no one came to JoinT and no one accepted, but i noe it was suepr wrong, and of cos i wanna c ppl coming to church, believing in Christ, hav a relationship wif God and all but at that moment i really wished that we will all stay in the same LG. I havent got enuff time to noe the ppl in LG well enuff yet and we havta part alredi. Then i tot abt msn, that i wud havta clear all the names under LG and move it somewhere else, n drag other contacts into LG from next year on, i really felt liek crying lar. So sad please. But i guess i shud b mre optimistic n open liek wad the leaders say and welcome the new batch of ppl who will be coming in really soon.

The saddest thing about leaving LG i guess wud b that i nvr ever did managed to tok to all the ppl in it, given 1 n 1/3 years to do so, i nvr ever manage to do so. Kinda disappointed but i guess i wud havta move on. I nvr really did share wif the ppl until after warming up recently. I feel so stupid that i backslide so easily n wasted so much time. I cud hav done so much during that time to noe mroe abt ppl in LG. I really gotta step out of my comfort zone to do so and all. Sounds cheesy but i really love the people in LG. Their the closest people to family or even closer soemtimes. The times that we had, fun sad lousy joy etc will now remain as part of my memory. Each member in LG, whether their new or old members really brought alot of joy to me. Saying good bye is the hardest and even though we still get to see each other in church, i guess it will nvr b the same again.

I love you people thanks alot for all the time we spent and if we ever go to different LG, i pray that God will still continue to use each n everyone of u in the most powerful way, cos we are people of worship evangelism and revival. Now its time for us to mature and for us to multiply. P.O.W.E.R M&M rawks!!

the most horrible trip ever...

2006-12-08T18:56:00.000+08:00

YES!!! IM BACK IN SINGAPORE!!! Lol. Australia sucks i tell u, the palce is horrible. The weatehr is weird, the angmohs hav nth bttr to do and i didnt get to shop for anything for myself at all. Haha. So anyway this short trip in australia gold coast was not as good as i expected it to be. Liek come on lar, we are spending thousands of dollars to go somewhere further den msia n its horrid i tell u. Besides that, the trip got even worse when my parents started to make it so much more unbearable.

When we arrived in australia on monday, the sun was exceptionally bright, and im talking about 4am in australia time. 4 AM in teh morning and its even brighter den noon here in singapore. Like wads wrong wif the weird sunrise?! So we finally arrived in brisbane airport and my parents somehow screwed it up and we ended up being the last group within the "tour group thing". So we were quite paiseh about it la but we juz hurried along. The next problem we encountered was the apartments we were staying in, the group before us, left teh palce in such a mess that we had to coem back at 2 later in the day, it was ard 10am in the morning. So we left our luggage at teh reception n went out to "enjoy" our free day at brisbane. The weather was weird i tell u. The sun was so freaking bright n it was so hot. But whenever there was wind, which came qutie often, it was so cold that u needed the jacket. So i was thinkign whetehr i needed to wear that jacket or not, but i juz held on to it n suffered in the cold. We walked aroudn the palce where we stayed in, its supposed to be somesort of tourist attraction and so we suppose there wud b soemthing interesting. This was the first day that we started shopping, for sourvenirs for ppl liek u whose reading this entry. Nothign for myself at all. All for YOU! Haha. So anyway it got qutie borign, but liek any other normal female, my sisters n mom juz went on shoppign teh same store for like n hr or so. Crazy people. We went back to the apartments in the evening and it rained, so we ordered soem delivery thing which was really nice- chicken pasta salad coselaw fries soup bread etc. And btw, i summarise the whoel day relatively shortly, in actualy fact, it was so boring n all of us esp me cudnt wait for time to pass faster.

The secodn day was suppose to be sorta nice too, i guess it was one of the most entertaining trips there. We went to this palce called paradise country where there were lots of farm animals n all. I was so excited i tell u cos the animals remidned me of new zealand n i sorta envy jo as she's goin there while im sufferign in this place. T_T. The place was qutie cool. There was this session where u cud take pics wif koalas and it was decided that my sis wud hold the stupid bear, cos my parents were too afraid to hold it and try to push it on us. In teh end, i decided to help my sis otu n carried the horrid creature, which stuck its nails right into my shirt. It was super painful lar. Then we went on to the kangaroos section and we argued qutie alot there wif my mom cos of the picture takign thing. Next were the farm animals n it was kidna cool lookign at them. Next up was the show times and we saw how this sheep dog managed to bring the sheeps back into some caged area and some trips wif teh boomerang. And tehre was this show on soem stupid tea thing and the show on hroses and cows. Quite cool actually. The highlight was the sheep shearing show and it was kidna cool, btu the way the guy handled the sheep, it seems as if the sheep was in great pain. Haha. That particular show was much mroe hilarious den the rest n i cud swear that i heard the guy said "thsi is too nancy" when he had a hard time shearing teh sheep. I was laughing liek a nancy. =]. Then we had lunch and it was a free day again. We walked aroudn lookign for more sourvenirs for FRIENDS liek u! And then we went to the supremarket to get dinner. We didnt go to the restaurants or cafe as the food there either sucked, too exp, or juz didnt feel liek eating it. At teh supermarket, it exacerbated my feeligns to get back to singapore asap. My dad was ULTRA MEGA SUPER childish i tell u. He argued wif my mom alot n when my mom gave up, he came to socld us. All becos we didnt want to buy raisin bread. LIEK WTH?!?! rite? Everyone was kidna pissed wif him. Liek come on la stop being childish, n who dips raisin bread into campell soup stuff? Weird guy. So that was abotu it for teh second day.

Third day was terrible! Movie world is super borign i tell u. There are very limited rides there and so little stuff to do. The place was so small too that there was very limited stuff to do there. The shows were bttr i had say, esp the police academy show which was really funny. Other den dat it was rides n rides n more rides. We stayed there from 9 to 430. Doin practically nth, I was so happy that we were gg back to the apartments at 430. Haha. Oh yah, we spend liek n hr or 2 at this buffet restaurant in movie world but it wasnt very good either. Dinner was at this chinese restaurtant the tour guide intro to us some lobster special, the food was nice but their attitude and service was very bad. Efficiency wasnt anythign close to good either.

The next day was kidna complicated. We were supposedly headed to this palce called tangalooma island where we get to touch dolphins and all that kidna stuff? But the bus nvr came and my paretns were tokin to the "tour guide" on wad to do. In teh end we switched itineries wif the 5th day, so we ended up goin to dreamworld. Dreamworld was much more impressive than dat of movie world. But it was bad too i had say. The rides were either too childish or else too exciting, n since i cudnt take the ULTRA thrilling rides, i had to settle on the childish rides, so basically i focus my attention that day on all the shows. It was kinda nice n we made frenz wif this 2 angmohs, a grandad brining his grandson along. It was nice talkin to them. We went to get dinenr again by ourselves todae, n this tiem my dad didnt make a fuss as there was still leftover raisin bread for the day day before. =]. Oh and i coudl swear that i heard this gal calling this other guy, i think her bro to stop palying. It went soemthign liek this "themis stop playing". Yup. I was laughing away too. =].

The last day was too overwhelimg for me i tell u. I was so excited like YES!!! This day has finally come cos its teh last day of the trip. Lol. However it didnt go as smoothly as exected. As we had to check out early, we were made to pakc the room, and sicne teh coach was coming at like 745am which is really 545am, i didnt get much sleep at all. I had to help pack the palce and was scodled by my parents so many times cos they say i not auto enuff nvr help to do stuff. Im like wth?! I help lar. Liek all the stuff no one does, i do it, clearign teh table, throwign the rubbish cartrying teh stuff ard, buyign stuff that others need, waitign for them. N i got scodled cos i nvr help out n was taking a logn time eating. Liek which smart fellow wud ever pour down HOT soup down the throat? My parents never even think n keep complaining n whining at how lousy i was. I didnt really care la. It has always been liek that. Im always the one at fault so oh wells. Anyway we were kidna late n the bus was no where in sight. So my dad went to call the "tour guide" again n foudn out that the bus was already there but didnt c us. The stupid driver drive ard the place so many times lar, ard the apartments but nvr stop when he saw us. Liek who wud think that a moving bus is waiting for us, i tot that the bus was jzu drivign thru lar pelase. In the end the bus driver super smart, ultra sarcastic. He said soemthing liek todae we started this bus journey, everyone has their own excuse for being late, n those that are goin to tangalooma it is DEFINITELY not ur fault and those gg to tangalooma, i dunno whether u will make it on time. We were the onli ones goin to tangalooma. Well done lar the driver. Anyway we alighted from that bus, took anth bus n finally a short cruise trip over to tangalooma. It was kidna broign la that place. Like they were feeding pelicans, n mostly all the atcivities there were for their resort guests. So we were left wif nth much to do. The doplign feeding that my sis was so looking forward to was in the nite at 7pm. But the ship leaves at 4 so we had to giv it a miss. Sianz i tell u. In teh end we foudn out that we cud actually do stuff lar. There was this 4wd thign that cost 58 per head for a 45mins drive ard the island, anth one was a tour to this really ncie palce in island wif supposedly superb scenery. Lastly tehre was this desert safari tour which we took. It was cool i tell u. The bus trip there was super bumpy n all and the angmohs behind me were making all the weird noises like "woahhhhhhh", "yippeeeee", "cool", "faster" n sort. Irritating i tell u. We finally arrived at the desert n the view was breathtaking la. Super nice. Haha. All the clear white sand was fantastic. Then the tour guide for this trip like brought us ard n explain to us some stuff. The sand was white at the top, then below it tehre was black brown light brown yellow red etc colours due to the variosu reasons. Quite cool i must say. Then tehy brougth us to this place to slide down the sand. Omg i tell u, climbing up the slope was ultra tiring, den coming down the place was i think really painful. Haha. Cos my elbows touched the sand so in the end some skin got scratched off. Haha. But it was fun minus the sand that came in. Lol. After that, we went back to the main island and we slacked ard more before heading back to the ship, and finally back to the apartments. We alighted later on to get kfc dinner and finally back to the apartments to get the bus back to brisbane airport. We went shopping ard for awhile, and after that got myself a new pencil case. At logn alst i got a pencil bxo after that horrid incident 13 days after my bdae. So yupz. Bye bye to the plastic bags n australia n welcome back to singapore. Haha. =] =] =].

flying...

2006-12-02T13:35:00.000+08:00

im flying to australia in abt less den 12 hrs from now... ill be back next week though, so its gonna be a short trip. Liek really short. Haha. Anyway i promise to buy u a super good sourvenir lar ok? Haha. Dun sad. haha. Anyway i gotta go now, so ciaoz ppl. Cya all soon. =] =] =].

JoinT...

2006-11-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

JoinT is this event organized by my church for this coming xmas and its gonna be fun and exciting. There will be free performances, a normal service, and free dinner for those who turned up. Its at DBS Auditorium, 21st December and will be held between 4-7pm. Those interested can coem tell me, i can help u guys get tickets. Haha.

Ok, anyway i hav been qutie excited and happy that some of my frenz hav agreed to coem for JoinT, and dun worry if i havent ask u, its onli a matter of time, btu if u're too excited and u wanna come, dun b shy and ask me for mroe details. Haha. So im kinda happy to knwo that my frenz are comign down, yup. Rebecca QiBin Jo Toi SongYao n fren u all bttr come. Lol. I askin mroe to come oso so dun worry. =] =] =].

Anyway im qutie troubled by JoinT too, a special request from a certain soemone who wishes to turn up. My sister. Haiz. Its kidna weird for me to ask her to come, nto becos of any particular reason, its juz WEIRD for me to ask family. I can be liek ultra thick skin in front of my frenz and all, but then when it comes to family, it all juz doesnt feel rite. I noe its kidna selfish n all, but i really feel very strongly against it. Dun ask me y, i juz dunno!

And then there coems the part where if she accepts n she will bcome part of Rgen. Im not against that. Honest. Its just that ill feel ultra weird abt it. Its liek having a sibling in the same sch as u, except closer. Haiz. I got "scoled" by someone, haha, i dun blame u. I guess im really finding excuses for myself but i really cant bring myself to ask her to JoinT. Not that i dun wan to, but i juz cant bring myself to. Im happy if she's a Christian at all, juz not in the same church pelase. Its hard for me lar i guess. Haha. Im looking for some pathetic alternatives liek askin my sis "Why dun u ask ur frenz who are Christians to invite u to their church?" But then at the end of the day it sounds liek im tryin to chase her away. ARGH! This is so irritating!! If only there was a simpelr way out. Haiz.

Ok anyway its getting late. Shall pray abt it. Ciaoz now ppl. =].

bitao...

2006-11-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

I feel sianz lar... dota is boring! dun play dota le please... especially goh song yao... u shud seriously stop playing dota.. haha. =]. anyway im feeling very sianz n tired now... dunno wad to do so typing something on this somewhat dead blog... haha.. =]... mayb i go change skin den blog proper... haha...

somethings are best left unsaid...

2006-10-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i last blogged and so many stuff have happened. Actually i have been thinking of blogging very frequently, howerver i was juz too lazy or too tired to post anything. So basically this is wad has happened to me recently.

Have been dotaing very frequently with my classmates and all n im getting bored of it. Haha. I hav a bad habit of stopping anything i do juz after i hav gotten the hang of it, be it games or studies. Haha. Dota is fun i guess, but after awhile its juz simple repetition and it sorts of makes the game dull n boring. What i feel most irritating is that dota saps one's enery n all, explaning why we all get so tired these days. I think im gonna stop dotaing not good. =]. Haha.

Also, i have been VERY involved in pw. Its the last lap of the race now, and all of us are trying our very bad to get the project in order. Be it the oral presentation or the InR. Its so irritating that straight after the exmas we hav to do PW, liek not enuff time for us to celebrate liek that. Haha. But anyway its good that we are doing our best. Our grp is doin pretty well oso i guess. =].

The next thing that i hav devoted my life to is tsubasa chronicle. I tell u its the best anime ever. So sad lar please. Every time u watch u wanna cry cos always so touching de. Im super happy that i watch teh anime lar, chionging it was worth it, however bcos of pw, i cant watch it properly. Haiz. Nvm. After pw den.

Anyway its getting late n im super tired, nto by dota but cos i was out todae wif the class, n studying wif jo ryan n the rest. It was fun and i pray that u all do well n promote to j2! =]

i LOVE my class...

2006-10-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

Xiling's entry is juz too much! Its liek makign me ultra emo. Lol. I dunno. Its seems liek everyone's becomign so depressed over the class n stuff liek that, n poor innocent me is gettign very emo becos of that. I dunno. It seems so weird lar. Everything everybody experiences is the saem as everyone else and now we all regret wad we use to do in the past. No idea why it became liek that but yeah im glad it did, liek xiling said, it may b a blessing in disguise. =].

Haha, now to be more coherent, i think it seems weird that we an go on postign n postign reading n reading teh sanme stuff abt the things that we all experience but we dun get bored of it. Liek even afetr reading toi's jo's chris' xiling's blog etc, u still feel liek reading more abt the class even if it makes ur heart break. I guess thats a kidn of evolution taht we are going thru. From complete strangers, we move on to the accquaintance stage, as normal friends, and finally the til death do us part frenz. Haha. I dun deny that i cant really identify anybody in class as a member of the last category. But even if we all were juz frenz, it already seems so hard for us to hav a clean break. Will we cry? Will we get depress? Or would we end up being indifferent in time to come? The answer can only be found in the future.

Meanwhile ppl, i guess we all shud maintain a positive attitude. Not all is lost my frenz. We still hav one another. Who says our friendships ends at the appreciation ceremony this thurs? It onli marks the new beginning of a nvr ending/dying frenship between all of us. N yes i mean all of us, cos rain or shine, we will be still, and stand firm against trials and tribulatiosn against out friendship. Let us all be strong and have faith that we will continue to b the best of teh best. T34, WE RAWK!

t34...

2006-10-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

Not too long ago, i remember toking about how good t34 was. Then later i changed my mind n felt that it was a bad class. Now im happy, i guess, to say that im proud to be part of t34. It's really the best class ever. I guess after receiving the results, many of us had mixed feelings, others might be rejoicing, whilst others were sad n disappointed. I was glad that i did farely ok so that i could promote. But then the fact that the class might be dissolved and split up hit me real hard. Its like taking the largest stone n smash it against me. The crazy dota outings and the time we all had together. I guess it must have been truly wonderful. They will be kept in my heart forever. Lol. Sounds emo and wrong but yeah please pardon me.

I guess what would strike me most on wednesday was how the gals could cry non stop n laugh at the saem time. What rachell said was definitely the climax of the whole event. That provoked even mroe tears from the tearful group of gals. Qi Bin and I were trying very hard to persuade them to stop crying but yeah it was to no avail. We later felt so bad for them that we almost cried lar. Im liek not very very very close wif them, like qibin's case, but yeah, i still feel very much for each and every one of them. I wanted to name each of them n express how each of them is like but i guess they all can be classified under the "crazy" people category. They are liek crazily funny and crazily fun. They are like the funniest bunch of people i have met since a long time ago and they really make my day. T34 will never be the same without them.

I marvel at the amount of time we spent after school and it really comes as a surprise to me how we manage to have class outings day after day, though i noe i sorta initiate almost all of it, yeah lol, but it really seems incredible. =]. Jo Toi and Chris blog is liek super emo please. I cannot take it le. I almost cried lar, they write until so emo. And anyway nothing is finalised yet, so people please be strong and believe. PRAY LAR. I tell u prayer is the best key ever, it can open doors that have been locked for decades. PRAYER is powerful i tell u. Have faith and believe. Since we hav nth to lose now, why dun u try? Haha. Anyway dun be too sad about anything k people? We will continue gg out and like wad u all said, our frenship will nto be confined within the 4 walls and will perservere. We will remains Friends Forever. =] =] =].

I got this pic from toi's blog. =]. Super nice please.

Yayness...!!!

2006-10-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Thank God for all that He has done for me! OMG! Through His grace and mercy, i actually managed to scrape through my PROMOS. Its liek suepr miraculous cos i didnt really study for the PROMOS. I prayed liek mad during the preparation time for PROMOS. Like i rem telling nicholas that i had commit my PROMOS and teh resutls unto God and i didnt really worry about my whole PROMOS at all. I havta admit that when we got back our scripts i was super nervous. But i guess God reassured me and helped me get promoted. Haha. I really really PRAYED ALOT! Like before every paper pray, during the paper pray, after the paper pray, before the paper pray, playing oso pray, in church oso pray. Haha. Prayer is really teh key to everything. Lol.

Anyway for the rest of teh people in class. Dun lsoe heart yah? I'll continue to pray for all of you all that we will all get promoted and be part of 2T34 next year. We can do it! Prayer is really very powerful. You all should try it. Haha. Meanwhile dun dota so much le.. its getting boring and im suepr broke.. T_T. Haha. Ok bye people dunno wad else to say le... =] Ciaoz...

to feel the burden...

2006-10-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

One week has past since the last time i blogged. 2 mths hav past since my bdae. 3 mths hav past since submission of eom. 4mths hav past since the holidays. 5 mths hav past since i got into council. 6 mths hav past since the introduction of pw. 7 mtsh hav past since i got into 2nd intake at CJ. 8mths hav pass since "taht" happened and 9 mths hav past since i got into CJ for the first time. Almost 10 mths hav pass since my O's. Time past really fast and im beginning to feel how much time i hav wasted altogether. That makes we wonder about what i have done from the day taht i accepted Christ until now. On that very day, i told myself that i wanna do my best to bring my FAMILY to Christ, to bring my friends too. But after looking back, what i did was so minimal i brought mroe friends to church within the short span of 5 months comapred to the 10 mths dat has alredi pass. What have i been doin? Im asking myself exactly that. Every time i do QT, i will pray for my family. But sadly, i dun feel the burden for them. I feel so unfilial? I dunno. I juz feel so guilty inside. I spoke to jem and he tot me this word called "travail". I wanna be like that i wanna be desperate for my family and friends. I wanna be deperate for this generation. I wanna do so much more! TRAVAIL TRAVAIL TRAVAIL... I pray u people do it too.

the 3 days of partying...

2006-09-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

So the partying started on wednesday and it never really did ended. Haha. On thurs and Friday we all had a fair share of our fun so as to take a break after the hectic PROMOS. Lol. It was uber fun lar!

It all started out from a messqage from wong qibin. Lol. He ask me to go to balmoral to play lan. So it started out from just me n him, and then we asked toi jo arthur ryan to come along. We intended to play at balmoral but since it was closed, we proceeded down to cyber dome near my house to play LAN. We sat tehre for liek 4 hours and since it was almost time for dinner, we went down to glasshouse for dinner. The place was fantastic lar, so nice pelae, but then the air con super cold. Lol. I got fish and chip and shared jungle freeze wif qibin n jo. It was a really good dinner. Then after that they decided to go play pool, so off we went to singapore shopping centre to play pool st paradigm. After that, me and qibin took a cab back home.

Friday i had council. Was suppsoed to meet at 9 but i woke up late and reach there at 945 almost 10. After abt half n hr, council ended so i was left all alone. Lol. I called qibin wong this time to go play lan. Again we intended to play ta balmoral sine it was cheaper there, but then they didnt have wad we wanted so we went down to cyber dome again. There, we called arthur toi n ryan. We were suppose to go down to jo's place to watch some movies that nite so we didnt meet up wif her. We played lan until it was almost time for dinner. I went back home for dinner while the rest went down to plaza singapura. I was super late when i met them again and then we took the NEL down to Kovan. We spent quite awhile before choosing a movie. Even after much persuassion from me, teh rest still wanted to watch a horror movie, so we got hosue of wax. The walk to jo's palce was horrible lar liek so far n so ulu pelase. So anyway we finally reach jo's place and we watch teh HORRIBLE show. The show is freaking disgustign please. Super sick lar. Anyway since it was ard 11 by then, we took a cab back me toi n qibin.

Ok thats all for the 3 days of partying. After these 3 days i think its back to chiogn study for history. Argh!

over...

2006-09-27T22:47:00.000+08:00

ITS OVER!! Like FINALLY!! Haha. Im so sorry the rest of you all in LG, but yeah PROMOS are liek finally gone... =] =] =]. Haha. Had a great day today slacking after maths n ne. Its like PROMOS are over, but not really in that sense, since we still have our H1 on the 9th of October, but that can wait. Im liek suepr happy and free now, but that means i will be super broed. Haha. =].

So anyway after our papers today, the whoel gang of us went down to town. We split up into 2 groups, some went to subway while the rest went to eat chicken rice, or at least they attempted to, haha, since it was so crowded, they ended up eating at hans. So bad lar. Never ask me go. Haha. Anyway i told them some exciting event that took palce in sch and we all agreed that too bad we miss it. Haha. After that we all met up and chiong down to watch teh banquet at cineleisure, we managed to get there in 10mins. Haha, but the show was starting in 10 mins. The banquet is nice lar! Like uber cool some scenes but yeah some of them didtn get wad it meant.

After the show, rachell showed me this way to sneak in to watch movie, we tyco tyco went in n watch 15mins of monster house den cos the rest cudnt get in they decided to go play bowling. But yeah lar i felt super guilty. Convicted! And then i went out wif them. We took 171 down to marina and we played bowling. Qi Bin totally trashed all of us. 6 of us played and all of us were liek best 1/3 of his score lar. 160++++++!! Haha. Then after that we tried to get chris to come down to marina there to watch anth movie, YES! 2 movies in a day!. Unfortunately, she cudnt make it so we decided to catch the 730 show at the cathay. We then went down to CANDY EMPIRE!! OMG! That palce is go everyday oso wudnt sick one, juz that i didnt have money lar. Haha. End of the mth. So anyway i realised that if u spent 30 n above u get a membership card so i spent 34 bucks juz liek taht, of cos i spent soem of that 34 bucks on pre orders... im so sorry wai yin... ill get u that mothballs thing next time. =]. It was 645 by the time we got out of candy empire, so yeah we had to rush down to the cathay!

We chiong down there and got tickets for the 10 of us, including chris, joel and their fren. =]. The show, john tucker must die, liek wad toi said, was kidna cliche lar, but yeah who cares? It was kinda funny at times. Haha. So anyway we spent anth few hours watching john tucker must die til abt 9. It was SUEPR cold in the theatre please, like all of us were freezing cold, i cudnt take it lar. ULTIMATE man. Haha. So anyway after that the grp of us took some photos before we all went out seperate ways home.

Its liek almost teh end of promos but i still dun get that feeling. Haha. So anyway im thinking of wad to do tmr. Super bored lar! Anyway i dun wanna waste my time on thinking abt the results, look to the future, lol. Anyway i will just leave everything to God. I tried my best now its all up to the teachers and Him. =] =] =]. Ciaoz ppl and work hard for those who havent end their papers. =].

lazy...

2006-09-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

I had this feelign to type ltos of stuff juz now btu now im so overwhelm wif laziness. Haha. I dun think i would be writign much today. So yah ppl good luck n study hard for Promos =] =] =].

happiness...

2006-09-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

Not too long, i felt super down and miserable, clinging onto worldly stuff to feed on to preserve my life. Now, i know that what i did was foolish and naive, there wasnt a chance that i could survive out there in the cruel world without Him. Without Him would be liek the end of the world. It is my blessing that i have encountered Him and i would liek to extend His majestic Love out to my friends who are reading this entry todae. We are living in the last days where we dun even know wad might happen the very next second. Call me emo or wad, but have u ever tot abt wad migth happen if you die rigth now?! Do you believe in a Heaven and Hell? If u do, where do u think u wud land up in? I urge my frenz to make ur decision todae. His arms are always open and reaching out to u. During this crucial time when we take our PROMOS, let us also be sensitive to the presence of the sueprnatural in our lives. Trust in God today! =].

John 3:16 (New International Version)
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

summary...

2006-09-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

Econs and GP are over... Thats a relief but that only means that Chemistry and Maths are coming. Matsh is such a horrendous subject. Torture people onli. Anyway im really worried about Chemistry, i cant afford to be complacent about Chemistry and i really hope to take H3 Chem next year but then theres this something thats tugging in my heart that tells me not to. Haha. I dunno wad it is myself but i think im gonan pray abt it. Havent really ask God about it yet but yeah.. I'll try to do so. Im so gonna fail maths, ok ill at least try to get a subpass for it, not that diff i suppose, i juz need to get at least 41 for it. But yeah so worried. Haha. Thats all for now. I think i shall try to go find and read up on reaction kinetics =].

the end is near...

2006-09-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

Its that tiem fo the year again, a time for all stduents to tremble and be afraid.. be VERY afraid. Lol. Anyway its the PROMOS and i think im so gonan fail. Haha. I havent really been touchign my books and i PROMISE im nto a closet mugger. Im nto a horrid hypocrite. Im a nice guy rem. Haha. =] =] =]. So anyway just wanna wish all thsoe in teh LG good luck for ur PROMOS even though my PROMOS' liek the earliest. Lol. You peopel better PRAY for me. Lol. =]. Anyway i still dun hav teh feelign that its PROMOS. Im mroe concern over other things such as my spiritual life and all. Lol. I dunno why im thinkign abt it rigth now but yeah. I defintiely hoep my spiritual walk increases by leaps and bounds i dun wanna b left behind. Jiayou all in your personal spiritual walk. =] =] =].

discipline...

2006-09-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

Had a good study break day todae. Its promos next monday and i still havent gotten into the mood to really study well. I guess its all up to God now. Haha. Anyway spent soem time with seck and leslie todae after meeting to "study" with rose and serene. I felt awed at how leslie could achieve so much in his spiritual walk. And tehn i look at myself and the peopel around. It feels weird when soemoen younger den you seems so much odler than u. I dunno. I guess it doesnt feel rite. So i decided from today on. Im goin to set my lfie straight again. Like bring myself back onto the path that God has set me on. My prayer will be "God will you bring me back to You again? Will You forgive Your sinful child? I pray that should i ever go astray You bring me back to the right path, for Your grace and mercy is sufficient for me. Amen." Somehow... i noe that His answer is a BIG "YES..." =] =] =]

my prayer...

2006-09-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

I dun wanna fall into sin anymore and i want to be delivered from this miserable hell that im living in right now! I need DISCIPLINE in my life... Would You just help me with my discipline?

new life...

2006-09-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

Im starting my life all over again. Today shall be a brand new day!

lost...

2006-08-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

Im devastated. I dunno why. Just devastated.

So much has happened but im too lazy to type it all down. Haha. Promos are coming and i think i better get down to real studying. I had this vision that i got retained and that totally freaked me out. Now I desperately wanna book people to study this coming holidays. =]. Come join me please. Haha.

Ok thats it for now. Im so looking forward to tomorrow's outing! My pillar of strength for this whole week. =].

the tale of the crumpler...

2006-08-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

I lost my crumpler! Yup! I lost my crumpler! The brand new one. I was playing LAN with stanley and ben seck today and i put my bag on teh floor beside me. I suspect some irritating fellow went down to steal my bag. When i was leavign the palce, i cudnt find my bag. So yah. Stolen. T_T.

Actually when i found that my bag was missing. I wasnt really very sad. What i felt most was that i was really sorry to those who had contributed to the LCF and how i would tell my parents. Another thing was that i lost my GC too. Its kinda sad u c... Cos everything in my bag, i had a part to pay in everything of it but for the GC, my parents paid like all of the $174! So yah it made me real guilty and to those in t34 n stan n hf thx so much for the crumpler. Im so sorry i lost it.

Some of u might noe that when i first got the crumpler i had this weird feeling that the bag didnt belong to me. I guess that was it. Haha. Maybe it was Materialism. It seems weird lar i dunno haha. Anyway rite, for thsoe who paid for the bag im sincerely thankful its my fault really. =]. So anyway i guess i wasnt "Fated" in that sense to have a crumpler. Im not getting one anymore. No use. =]. So anyway people rem that materialism nvr prevails. N before i end, i learnt alot from the crumpler story, and i pray for the poor kid who stole my bag. God's judgement be on him. =] =] =].

council...

2006-08-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

Council is fun! But then its super tiring please. Today we ended at almost 930pm. Its uber late n i guess the ntie study ppl in the audit extention were really irritated by us. But yeah who cares? We're doing it for their entertainment too. =].

So anyway i think i like my life now. Its liek really simple and no real disturbances and worries. Not much expectations and im contended with it. Church rawks! and LG ppl rawks too! Its nice to have such CARING ppl ard. Haha. So anyway i guess i juz hav to perservere on from all the pressure now.

Theres nothing the others can do. Its my life and my choice and decision. I dun regret wad i do and i hope i nvr will. Life doesnt suck anymore i guess! Its chiong study time anyway from now until promos! Who wans to go out to study? =] =] =].

loner...

2006-08-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

Im a loner... =]

i hate this...

2006-08-19T23:52:00.001+08:00

I wanna tell everyoen whats happening in my life now. How messed up it is and how screwed up it has become! I really want to! But then no one can change anything. Its no use u c. So wad if i tell u ppl? At the end of the day, no one can change wadeva that has happened. I realised that there isnt anyone that i can really find comfort in except Him. I feel so stupid and so foolish. But then again i always have been. Will anything change after i tell anybody anything? Cos it jus makes me angrier n angrier! With so mant vexing situations coming all at once (again!) it just becomes harder for me to open up. Shuddup for once u people n let me live life myself. Maybe i can finally attained that "enlightenment" in life.

screwed up...

2006-08-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

I think my life sucks! Like Big Time! So many discommunication and miscommunication. So hard to put on that facade each day. I so wanna slap my face! Liek come on la why isit always my fault and all? I tried my best and im happy with that. Like if im nto stressed up enough. So stop adding pressure to me already.

So many negative stuff are happening at teh same time. N its so near promos some more! I so wanna commit suicide btu then again, i'll go to hell cos of that so im not going to do it. Someone stab me?! Anyway its becomign so tedious to try to salvage anything and im so used to be callign the blacksheep. To hell with all the problems. Give me my own life!!!

happy bdae...

2006-08-14T19:51:00.000+08:00

Yayness! Its bdae time. Anyway its really ncie to have ur dream coem true. Haha. Quite lame lar but yeah. Haha. So anyway hope that the year ahead will b good. =] =] =]. Ok thats it for now i think bb =] =] =].

guilty...

2006-08-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

Ok. Its national day. Happy bdae Singapore. Haha. Ok so anyway today was a relative happy day. Spent lotsa time wif my cuz and i think it was ratehr fun. =].

Started out the day by waking up at 11, washed up and cab down to riverview hotel. We were havign lunch at this chinese restaurant and the food was great! It was this alarcarte buffet thing and they really serve large portions of food. So we got liek ALOT of stuff and when we tot we were full enuff. The adults on the other 2 tabel;s were still ordering. Not to be outdone we ordered even mroe food. In the end all 3 tables were struggkling to finish all the food ordered and we were all trying to push food around. Haha.

After that, me and my other 5 guy cuz went down to Peace centre to play dota. N guess wad, we spend a total of 5 hrs there. The games were not that bad lar. Haha. Like we spent an avergae of 1/2 for the first few games. The last game was liek 2 hrs. Haha. It was awesoem spending tiem wif tehm and all den we left teh palce at abt 8 and went to ps.

Had dinner there at LJS and we crapped alot. Especially soemthing that we all agreed on. Haha. Its super evil lar but then well we are somewhat related to ir and it affects us all in teh future. Haha. Had a good laugh before heading home.

Today's a good day and i hope it will still be. =] =] =].

reflections...

2006-08-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Its been awhile since i last blogged. So much has happened and yeah it has really been an awesome time. So much to say yet i cant seem to find the right words to fit it in. Haha.

So anyway for the past few days, i have been sleeping in late. Like earliest 1 latest 4. So much work to do. For the first time i realised hwo stressful JC life cna be. History Econs PW Council. So much essays to type out please. Hmm. So anyway im so thankful that everythign is over now. And its high time for me to relax. Tmr's national day celebration and we are doing the stupid double whammy thing. So anyway i hope all u hav a restful time this holidays. And lydia happy bdae.

N yeah thx gary and esmond for ur intersting tags but yeah its really ok if u all dun post next time. Haha. =] =] =].

roller coaster...

2006-08-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

Erm.. today's been good. I dunno. There are liek really ups and down today, but im glad it ended fairly well. Haha. Dun worry im okay k? Its really not ur fault or anything. I wanna say lots mroe but i dun think its convenient thru the blog. So yeah. =] =] =].

Anyway tehres been lots of talk abt my countdown thing to my bdae. Its not my fault that technology has enabled something liek that to be created. Lol. U cna get it if u wan, haha. Its really easy but yeah rem my bdae's coming. As from today, its onli 12+ days more. Im waiting for that crumpler. Thanks alot ppl who are contributing. =] =] =].

expectations...

2006-07-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

Parents are so disusting please. They dunno wad we are going thru and yet they think they know everyone of us inside out outisde in. I totally cnat stand their arrogant attitude. Everythign in their eyes are wrong. So wad do u expect us to do? No matter wad we still get scolded rite? So of cos we do something that will make u unhappy. Its fun to suan ur parents. I liek that feeling. People please look at the countdown ok? =] =] =].

relaxed...

2006-07-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

Im so happy... I jzu told her today abt it... And im so glad that we both so agree on it. Haha. Liek oen less stone in my heart... =] =] =].

Yah i dun wanna tok mroe le got alot of things to do now.. hist gp n chem.. haha. im liek so gonna fail all 3 so ciaoz for now ppl. BB!

happy day...

2006-07-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

Ok i got a complain from mr jason lee that when i blog i liek tell everyhting from head to toe wadeva that has had ahppened in teh dae. But i tot its onli rite to do so rite? Haha. Liek so many exciting things happen to me n all. So yeah. Haha. Please bear with me ppl kk? =].

So anyway i woke up liek super early for svc had breaskfast in ttsh b4 headign down to church for svc. Service was good btu soemhow i felt hardened? Dunno. I didnt feel liek respoindong to altar call. I had this feelign that teh sermon rpeached today wud b good but soemhow i cudnt set my midn to pay attention... so all i did was juz to read n to read teh bible. Haiz. Nvm lor. Then at altar call i juz felt liek going away n so i did n afetr taht i went to sleep on teh sofa. Quite lame i noe. But dunno why. Felt so hardened lar my heart. Like was aksing why isit always liek that? Haha. So i shall ask God this qn during QT tonite. =].

So after svc teh lot of us went down to ttsh again for lunch. Had teh noodles n den we went to play a trick on haofeng. Somehwo he was smart enuff to discover that we played a trick on him. In teh end he dao us the whoel tiem there n staretd this revenge thing. So horrible lar him. But yeah nvm i forgive him. =]. Haha. After that we ate ice kachang and then we headed down to national library bcos haofeng need to do hsi EoM. On teh way we met the poor bdae gal anna who was "abandoned"... So we decided to let her tag along and we split our ways at bugis, the gusy went to national library, the gals went shoppign for anna's clothes. In teh end, none of us enjoyed the time, liek suepr sianz diao. Haha.

After meetign up again, we headed to erm suntec city. We went to walk aroudn n dilys n teresa were tokin nonsense as per usual n they were both acting cute lar. Super disgusting please. Haha. Juz kiddin. Then after that we went to the church there at sutnec, i didnt liek the feeling at all when i was there, but the stuff they sold at the shop was relatively MUCH nicer. Haha. So we walked around. Had to pull haofeng n stanley poh away from the horrible toysrus n den find a palce to sit down n talked properly. We had to stop at this toy shop cos all of us were apparently attracted to the tosy they had, onli teresa was unaffected. Wad to do, she's old alredi. Haha. So anyway we oso stopped at this shop that sells alot of stuff related to the movies n stuff liek tt. Super funny lar and we spent alot of tiem there laugghing n tokin nonsense. Later we finally got ourselves to carrefour to get outr dinner. =].

At carrefour it was anth time for dilys n teresa to gross me out wif their mommy calling thing. Superl mae but yeah the mother n daugther bought a whoel chicken for dinenr and we all got a total of 4 litres of apple juice for the 5 of us. Whiel the 2 gals were eating, me stan n hf went to pastamania to get erm.. pasta? duh.. Haha. So anyway when we finally came back, the 2 hungry ghost had alredi gobbled up almost the whoel of the chicken. And that poor me n hf were kidn enuff to tkae their leftovers. Haha. Afetrt hat really FILLIGN MEAL, i dragged them down to CANDY EMPIRE!!!

CANDY EMPIRE is teh best palce to be whether u are happy sad down or angry, candy empire is teh palce to b. =] =] =]. So anyway b4 we went there they were all liek suepr reluctant, after we got there, it was a totally diff story. Liek everyoen wans to explore thsi magnificent place pelase. Haha. That stupdi hf had to like hurry all of us, spoil all the fun. Haha. At abt 8, we got our candies chocolates and wadeva n went home. On teh way back, the 2 gals still cudnt stop acting cute and wad they said was so disgustign pelase. Haha. Liek im the cutest person ever n they try to ban men nong fu. But yeah, sicne im so kidn i shall forgive dem. Its gettign late now so ciaoz ppl. =] =] =]. Nitez.

thank you serene...

2006-07-22T12:36:00.000+08:00

OH im so freaking happy now. Like over teh moon happy. Haha. Its like i have been in this rough patch for this whole period of time and im finally seeing that ligth at the end of the tunnel. What serene said was rite, we cant expect life to go the way we want it to. We shudnt complain when thigns dun go our way, but yeah try to embrace it as much as we can cos we can nvr rewind wadeva we did. Lol. So anyway im like super thankful for all those who expressed their concern during this period of time, especially teh LG people n all. N o special thansk go to xiaoting, she's like so free lar... cna go my blgo n read all my nonsense or else is she sian from pokemon. Haha. Thank you for all the encouraging stuff u all hav said to me. =].

N oh the last thing i wanna say is that im actually sad cos my pokemon efforts were wasted cos somehow when i on the gameboy this morning, everything in the pokemon yellow was gone. Im so sad please. T_T. Haha.

troubles...

2006-07-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

Im becoming emo this few days. Like i noe alot of people out there are pretty concerned and worried abt me and i thank those people. Its liek suepr wierd... i noe... to blog liek this, its liek unusual, away from the norm and stuff. But yeah i think i need some personal time and stuff. I really thank those who express their concern genuinely. Its liek really heartening and i appreciate all your efforts.

Yah for those who are qutie clueless to wad i hav juz blogged abt, im facing a really tough time now. Like all my major problems juz keep ocming at me. No fun i tell u. Its really irritating like u cna tell no one and then everything juz starts bottling up. I feel liek taking off the happy smiley face everyday, liek its tiring and stuff. I want to juz sit down n think abt my problems and come up wif solutions ppl will start saying im emo, juz becos im not smiling and stuff. Thats unfair i think to me. Yeah i really want to show a diff side of me and ppl start thinking im emo. Its really vexing.

Im like still sorting out stuff rite now, and i dun really rely on Him when i should, actually i do, but juz not totally. Haiz. I think that we should like act how we feel liek dun try to act diff, its not healthy that way but like its so hard not to in the world i am in. What will u all do if from tmr onwards i start becoming so quiet n then i do all my work in class juz keeping my mouth shut dun join anyone for recess hide in the library chiong homework n do well academically n not socially like totally ZERO interaction with the class people or anyone else for that matter? Would that make me different? Like geek? Liek retarded insane? Im tired i dun wanna hide anymore behind this facade.

Haiz. Anyway to end this entry with a much ligher note, i wanna thank terri and xiaoting for lending me their gameboys to play pokemon. Its fun and really makes me less stressed up n stuff. Thank you. =] =] =].

happiness...

2006-07-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

Today was a GREAT day. Haha. We had svc in teh mornign and i think worship was great i guess. Haha. Then we had the bali video presentation, i was laughign alto lar. and that jeremy tay looks super funny when he was up on teh stage. Haha. Then for the preaching part, i think theres soemthing wrong with me nowadays i prefer to read the bible mroe than lsiten to the preacher. Then whiel i was thinkign abt that, i saw this part in the bible telling us taht we must liek always respect whoever is preachign and lsiten and liek not not pay attention n stuff. Then i got scared and listen attentively. Haha. Was suepr funny.

After that we had lunch and then we were all liek debating on whether we should or should not go to elgin's house. Meanwhile we were talkign to stanley and yupz. Was trying to let him understand our point of view n stuff liek that lar but yah lor its really up to him. Anyway afetr that we ended up in elgin's place. It was not bad lar. The guys were all playing soccer n stuff liek that and then teresa was suepr weird lar. Liek cos she's the onli gal, she keep on telling me that she wanna go home le. Haha. After that ard 6 liek that we all left the palce. Oh n did i mention we all saw this really disgustign scene i shall nto say much cos its really disgusting. Haha. Ask seck or teresa for more details. =].

We were talkign hell alot of nonsenses on teh way to town was supposed to go to novena suqare this korean restaurant, but somehow my parents wanted me to meet them at centrepoint. Ben seck happened to b gg there as well, so we all walked there and it was really crappy lar. Ben seck is really lame please. Then we went to the teochew restaurant where he was supposed to be eating at and i onli went in to sit down liek 1 min and i had to leave cos his aunties and uncles n cousins had arrived. Poor me please. Then i went to times bookshop to read books whiel waiting for my parents. They arrived shortly and geuss wad we ended up eating at the same restaurant as seck.

Seck was liek totally stupid lar i sit there liek God noes hwo logn le den he finally realised i was there lor. But his sister is like REALLY cute. The younger one i mean. Haha. Then the food there wasnt that bad lar, we had crabs lobster sea cucumber and fish and stuff liek that. Strandard chinese food and all. Then after taht we left lor. Seck and his family liek stuck in the room for liek 20 misn or so taking pictures i think but yeah later he todl me the food he ate not nice. So haha too bad for him. =]. Ok tmr is anth dae VERY busy! Hopefully nth goes wrong. Ciaoz now ppl. =] =] =].

...

2006-07-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

WHY?!?!

My life is so screwed! So many vexing problems and i cant seem to find a solution to them all! God help me!

EMO...!

2006-07-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

On the morning of July 10, 2006 the teachers of Catholic Junior College dropped the bomb "Mid-Year Results" on the students of 1T34, followed continuously for the next three days, the detonation of the "Super Sucky Mid Year Results" bomb over 1T34, CJC.

In estimating the death toll from the attacks, there are several factors that make it difficult to arrive at reliable figures: inadequacies in the records given the confusion of the times, the many victims who died months or years after the bombing as a result of mental torture, and the pressure to either exaggerate or minimize the numbers, depending upon how parents of the students might/will react. That said, it is estimated that by July 2006, as many as 26 had died by the bomb and its associated effects. In the other bomb blast, roughly 20 people died of the bomb and its aftereffects with the death toll from two bombings around 46 people.In both cases, all of the casualties were students.

Yah Ok i noe its suepr lame... Im bored u c wad do u expect from a bored guy? Haha. Please dun think dirty i noe it sounds wrong. Haha. So anyway the results are out. I have totally no idea wads up wif the "f" grade n "u grade" thing, btu wadeva it is i did liek super badly. Haha. I got D for Chem, E for GP, F/U for Maths Econs and History. Im not very sad actually cos i didnt really study u c. Wad made me sad was that for Chem GP Maths and Econs, im liek 1 mark away from the next grade so yah quite pissed. Lol. But yeah its all over. My class didnt do really well actually but yeah we will all study hard and trust me we will be the smartest class by the end of this 2 years and NO ONE will retain! Lol.

So anyway guess wads the latest news i heard, ppl in class are saying that im emo! Like OMG?!?! Why say im emo? Arent i the nicest, most humorous, caring, friendly, generous, intelligent, obedient person on earth?!?! Oh i forgot to add in humble but yeah i noe u all noe how im like. =]. So anyway why are u all defaming me? Liek im so nice please, dun spread rumours abt me. Im lame. Haha. Yeah if u say this days im going crazy yeah i may udnerstand but why emo? Emo is liek such a BIG word to me! I dun understand wad emo u all mean? Liek emo emo? Sentimental emo? Desperate emo? Spiritual emo? PMS emo? OMG emo? Lol. So many versions please. Please tell me ok? Haha. Ok i think thats it for todae. Remember to reflect people. Life's short must cherish it. =].

short entry...

2006-07-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

Why isit that we always fall into temptations and why do we always succumb to our evil ways? Is there no way out of this vicious cycle? I wonder what it would be liek to live in a world void of temptations? How nice it must b i guess.

Anyway today was a nice day overall, though jo was really sad abt her results, but i guess its alright now. We will all do well together in promos, dun worry! Haha. After our council investiture rehearsal, i went down to meet jem stanley n seck. We watched pirates of teh carribean and i guess it was a pretty ncie show. Haha. I think its super worth it please. Lol. After that we all went home.

Short simple and sweet entry juz liek wad i am... =]

reflections...

2006-07-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

Ok i got back some of my results so far and yeah i think i did pretty badly. Haha. I guess nto studying for mid years wasnt such a good idea. Ok so basically i gotten back a few papers here n there and thsi is wad i got: Chem D(54) Econs (8/25 for case study) GP (23/50 for essay). Yah actually i can give like a thousand and one reasons why i didnt do well, but yeah i noe its really cos i didnt study. So its my fault to start with. Erm for chem i think i cud hav done better(even though i didnt study), there were liek lots of careless mistakes here n there and some screwed ups around. For Econs, i guess im gonna fail, it seems that my class has only 5 or 6 passes and christine aka the econs pro got onli a c grade at the very maximum. For GP, im like really pissed, not becos of any special reason, but cos i lost to "he-who-never-fails-to-irritate" as quoted from jo's blog. Haha. Ok yah i think thats about it for my results thus far.

Ok so anyway my entry is not about my results, but rather on the reflections on my life thus far. It seems weird that people fail to juz sit back n reflect on their life. I feel that it is of utmost importance to really sit down and thnk upon one's actions and teh consequences brought about. Its like neccessary. Lol. So anyway i had a talk wif a couple of my frenz and i began to think back on my life. Its liek really nice to know that God is in control, like you nver ever havta worry about ur future cos u noe it wud b liek totally exciting and cool. Yeah! Haha. So anyway i was oso reflecting abt the fact that God has given me the opportunity to lead my life simple. Liek there are hiccups here n there in life but not major catasrophes like tsunamis. =]. My life is like blessed compared to those poor souls out there.

Then one of my frenz were sharing abt some of his experiences in his life, and i was kidna shocked. Like wadeva u watch in tv, we always say its onli a show it wudnt happen in real life, but sometimes it seems that there are indeed true cases and there are abundant of examples for it. Like gang fights, unhappy family, broken family, prisons, rapes, assaults, pre-maritial sex etc. Its liek totally shocking! Like wad is becoming of ppl nowadays. Like my life here is so innocent and naive, i always look on the positive side of things, but then there are such scenarios that cannot be neglected.

Haha. Ok i dun think i wanna continue talking le, its liek rather depressing n demoralizing. Ok i think thats it. Ciaoz ppl, its doomsday tmr, maths n hist! Wish me luck! =] =] =]

Youth day holiday...

2006-07-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

You wud expect me to sleep til like 12 or 1 on a holiday. But on this very special day, i woke up at liek 8? The reason was becos i was going to east coast park with the LG and to eat sakae. Haha. So i hurriedly rushed out of the hosue at 8:30 to go over to find wai yin at bedok mrt, cos she wanted to meet me at 920. Unfortunately for me, i took bus 48 and landed up lost at somewhere near parkway cc library there. Sicne i didnt noe i was liek super near east coast, i tot i was loss. And oh my handphone spoilt. It's now officially my watch cum pager. Stupid lar. Lol. But yah anyway i had no choice btu to borrow from this nice girl waiting for a bus, so yupz, she lended it to me so that i could call wai yin. Wai yin oso dun quite noe the place so she ask me go down to bedok to meet her. SO i took 196 down.

When i arrived at bedok mrt, wai yin told me we had to take 196 down to east coast. It turned out that i had pass the bus stop while i was on my way to bedok mrt, qutie waste time but yah, everyoen was late except stanley. In the end, we finally arrived at teh macs and the onli ppl hu came were wai yin me jem stan ben jerrold. Its like super small grp. Haiz. But nvm lar. Haha. =]. So we went down to get bikes and soon we were cycling. I was cycling infront cos stupid seck n stan tried to knock me down, after checking they werent behind, i turned my head around onli to realise i was going to hit the fence. What did i do? Nothing! I was stunned lar, liek u noe must press brakes, but yah stunned, so i didnt do that, so in the end my legs hurt alot even now. Lol. But its okay lar, later we continued cycling and arrived at the end point. The view was spectacular, breath taking blah blah. Sad thing was there wasnt that dry beach that i saw the last time i went. That was really disappointing. Anyhow, the whoel group of us tried to do soemthing different. Liek phototaking. So i guess we all took liek about 50+ pictures. Lol. I think we rawk lar. Haha. Like how we even managed to do it its really unbelievable. Stanley initiated teh idea of takign surreal pictures n all. And kind me, became their model for every shot. Quite lame. I was super tired and tried to lie on teh grass. The view was spectacular and guess what? They had to spoil it by taking my picture. I would not say who it is in case i embarass Stanley and my LG leader, Jeremy Tay. =].

Soon, we were on our way back. It was cool, i saw a couple of familiar faces on teh way back and yeah it was fun meetign people and catching up with them even though it was only for a short while. So we continued cycling and bought drinks on the way. Finally we arrived at teh end point and then we went over to stanley's place to change. It was nice to be able to bathe and change into fresh set of clothings afetr cycling. Haha. Then we went to use the com and the laptop. The leaders were focusing on teh LG blog. Well, teh LG blgo has been there for God knows how long, but then we dun hav an official post still. Haha. Nvm, we will get there. Then later, we went down to parkway to have our lunch. SAKAE!

Sakae was fun i must say, the food was okay and we were all liek plannign to eat liek 100 plates for like teh 6 of us. Then guess wad? We were ULTRA full when we reached the 64th plate. Its like super CMI lar. Lol. So anyway when we were at our 30th plate or so, we were discussing that we should get rid of all the rice in the sushi and all. Lol. It was hilarious lar. All teh crap ideas they came up with. Liek flattening all the rice on the plates, and the oops i drop it method. Lol. Super lame. Worse still, they even went to liek stuff the rice into the hand towel packet. So crazy lar, then they like keep on going out and stuff to throw the rice away. Then we had liek sharing session on how to get rid of all the rice, like ppl who brought in plastic bags to throw all the rice into. Thats like ultimate kiasu lar. Lol.

So anyway when we were all liek SUPER full, we playedt he who what huh game. And then liek the leaders kenna alot lar. The MOST memorable part would be the one in which jeremy kenna the eat sushi forfeit. We liek ordered this sushi that was supposed to have lots of wasabi in it. When it finally came, jeremy smartly went to say that it was not wasabi actually. So ben seck and stanley went to liek put a whoel chunk of wasabi on one of them. Then jeremy kept on refusing to eat it lar. So we had to liek force him into eating it den use ji jiang fa and stuff liek that. In the end he went to scrape teh wasabi off, so stanley snatch teh plate over and this time he put 2 chunks of wasabi on the 2 sushis. So jeremy die die oso havta eat. Lol. Later, he no choice quickly ate one sushi down. OMG! That image of him eating the wasabi and later exclaimign it was hot facial expression was priceless lar. We were all liek literally rofl, me and wai yin were liek squatting on teh floor laughing at him while the rest of them oso broke out laughign at jeremy. Jeremy really super suay lar. Then later when he recovered he went to like jack stanley cos stanley liek wanted to take his car home or somethign like that. Haha. Super funny lar.

So anyawy after that i went home. It was a fun day, tiring but nevertheless exciting. Unfortunately too little ppl came. So yah. Next time, P.O.W.E.R M&M-ers we must all go for LG outing ok? Ok ciaoz for now ppl...

youth sunday...

2006-07-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Youth sudnay was a blast! Service was fantastic i must say, teh whole atmosphere changed b4 n after i stepped into the sanctuary. I could liek totally sensed the Holy Spirit's prescence there. =].

So anyway i had liek GCE in teh morning. Like wake up at 8? Lol. Then i went for GCE and had this talk thing abt healing by rev philip ming. I think it wasnt that bad, if not for me falling asleep so ever frequently. And oh, we were all todl to wear orange shirts on that fateful day, but guess wad, i totally forgot about it and wore red. Stanley loan me one of his extra's, he had anth for hao feng. And i was stuck wif that shirt for the rest of service. After GCE, me haofeng n dilys went to ttsh to get breakfast. Chicken pie is still the bets at polar. Lol. After breakfast i went back to church and then upon receiving serene's call, i went to meet her at the mrt.

This was serene's second visit, so yah lucky for her, she didnt hav to stand up infront of the entire BIG crowd. Lol. So anyway we had worship and it was ULTRA powerful. I could really sense something different durign that worship. Like God was using me and sorta stuff. It was an awesoem feeling and i guess its nice being consuemd in teh glory of God. Lol. This day's i become so holy and im not ashamed of that, instead im happy. Cos at least im growing spiritually, and there is NOTHING to be ashamed about. =]. Most importantly, i wan to share the gospel wif my non believer frenz. =]. Ok, abit too overboard sidetracking. Back to the story, so anyway, after worship we had ps tony telling us all abt announcements and all. And soon after we had holy communion. I dunno how serene felt, but i guess she was curious lar. Like i oso was when i came to church for the first few times. Sunday svc isnt that very bad, but yah sat is so much bttr some times i feel. =]. Later, ps ben preached to us abt youths and parents. It was good, and i was really reminded by God that being young doesnt mean that we cant accomplish big things. After taht we went to pray for a group of the yougn adults in youth svc hu hav been "promoted" to young adults ministry. Haha. It was qutie weird for me though, cos i dun really neo the ppl well, but yeah nvm.

The lunch refreshments were good. The siew mai went really fast and poor stanley over managed to get one. Serene was quite scared i think, always hiding or standign oen corner. Then while teh whoel grp of us were eating. My FANTASTIC LG members started to mass suan me lar. Thanks alot lor. Too much noe they, then that serene oso too much, nvr help me keep on eating n laugghing onli but yah nvm lar. Since im liek teh nicest guy ever, i forgave them. =]. Then later we lingered ard church until it was tiem to go. Serene went back after noe-ing we were going to town. Lol. Stayign in town is good. =]. So a whoel grp of us went over to town and we ate n played at taka. Annabel is liek really good wif teh bai zhi ma hei zhi ma game. What to do. Good teacher produce good students. =]. So anyway we were making too much noise until ppl complain. Lol. So yah. Then later more ppl left, leavign onli me stanley william ben seck haofeng n anna. We went over to paragon to shop. =].

The whoel grp of them best lar. Me and seck were resting at the sofa and when they left, they didnt even tell us lor. Then we were sitting down liek idiots. =.=. So anyway foudn them at coffee club and seck left to meet his frenz. We sat down at coffee club for liek God noes how long b4 we finally got a muddy mudpie. IT WAS FANTASTIC!!! Super value for money i tell u. Im liek so goin to go back there again. Haha. Then after that i went hm. It was a fun day. =] =] =].

SYF...!

2006-07-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

SYF opening was fantastic. Haha. Though it ruined my plans of going to church on saturday, but oh wells, it totally rawk!

So me n qibin went to waffletown for lucnh yesterday and we had to eat really quickly cos we were running late, we had to resort to takin a cab later and we were still late. Lucky for us, the teachers were late too. Haha. So anyway we were all gathered at the carpark and after like 1/2 hr later were we dispatched onto our respective buses. The weather was like really hot and we all were perspiring! The aircon on the bus was like a life saver for each n everyone of us. Lol. On the bus, we were talking nonsense and EK and Joanne were like making the most noise. Haha. So after taht we finally arrived at our destination.

We had to walk like ALOT to reach the stadium. Jasmine cheryn n i were liek thinking of hopping over to the indoor stadium so that we could attend the FIRE conference. Too bad we didnt. Lol. So like after walking alot and waiting for like almost 1 1/2 hrs later, we entered the already 3/4 filled stadium. The choir was singing as per usual and they nvr change teh song from like ndp years back. So lousy the dance steps they did change though. The first performance we saw was by the youth flying club flying some stupid planes. Lol. So freaking small. After that we had lots of other perofrmances but all were qutie screwed up. The choir was singing alot though. Lol. Oh so yah there wasnt any really nice performances. Then was the all time favourite minister tharman who came in. Quite stupid lar, he come in oso no one noe, after he came in everyone was like huh? and laughing. Lol. Quite sad. =]. Then was the guest of honour. PM Lee Hsien Long. Pro wor, i was cheering like mad for him. Qi Bin was like complaining that he cnat shake hands with the PM, so i had no choice but to shake his hands. He shud b glad that the future ruler of teh galaxy is shaking his hands. =].

So anyway nth else exciting happen until the 1st mass display. It was by Nan Hua. So obviously since liekl 800 odd ppl were there, i tot rebecca was there too. So i msged her, it was liek onli later in teh day that she replied. N yup, she was there. Talk abt coincidence. N oh yah! Themis was there too, he bought a ticket n he even saw the kindest person on earth, me, and qi bin together. So yah qi bin was saying he used those ultra good binoculars to find us. Lol. Super evil lar him. So anyway yah back to the mass display. I think the sec 3 dancers were fantastic. Haha. But then opverall the display wasnt that bad lar. But come to think of it Nan Hua quite enthu abt such stuff. Lol. Last yr participate in NDP, now oso join SYF. Lol. Qi Bin say they quite free. =].

After that was the highlight of the whole show. The display band competition. OMG! Tanjong Katong secondary was like FANTASTIC lar! Their display is liek suepr nice and they like played really nice songs. Like they made patterns of batman, superman, darth vader, some weird shapes n all. Then they like play different movie theme songs of the superhero they were featuring. The performance was spectacular lar. Like super cool. UBER COOL! Lol. The drum major walk liek super zai liek that, then throw the mace always catch except one time he dropped it. Quite sad lar. Lol. So anyway after that, it was Deyi's turn. It was good i must say, but i think tanjong katong came up with something that blew our breaths away that it didnt become as good as it was. They followed architectures of various countries. They even played da chang jin lar when they were featuring korea. Lol. Then when they were featuring holland, they had flags waving around to signify the windmills n all. Splendid performance. =]. And the drum major oso very pro, everytime he threw the mace, he catch it de. =]. Next up was Bowen Secondary. It was qutie disappointing i must say, cos they didnt hav alot of those fanciful props. But they could have won most sexy display band award. The drum major was good lar, female but could do all the stunts well. Also rite, she managed to like catcth the mace everytime she threw it. =].

After that was the 2nd mass display performance. It wasnt that bad either i must say, they had like this spring thingy and it looked really impressive and really cute lar. Lol. Unfortunately i think the cyclists wasnt that good. Lol. So later they announced teh results. Tanjong Katong won display band of teh year while deyi won best drum major. Quite sad lar Bowen, after the whole thing, some of the members were liek crying. Like i think i wud too lor, liek practice so hard, in the end get like 3rd nia. So sad. Haiz. So anyway later was teh Grand Finale. It was really standard lar, liek everyone come out kidna stuff. Lol. But the exciting part was the campus superstar winners appearances lar. Lol. Teresa rawks lar! Lol. Like they onli show her nvr show teh chee yang. Lousy lar. Lol. Go teresa! Lol. So anyway after they finished singing the theme song, all of us could go home. We sat there n wait til it was less crowded b4 we proceed to the bus meet up point. On teh way, i had a choir concert as the choir ppl were singing their songs. Uber pro! Lol. So after that we all went back to sch and reached like ard 9. Lol.

After that, me qb victoria xiaoting n terri went over to lido to eat dinner. We were talking lots of nonsense and it was nice suaning diff ppl once in awhile. Lol. So liek around 10? We all went hm cos teh gals wanna go watch soccer. Lol. That sentence was ironic but yah hu cares. =]. So we like took our seperate buses home. Wanted to cab back but it was just too freaking diff to get a cab at that time, so i walked all the way home. It wasnt that bad lar, n i arrived at hm at ard 1030, almost 11. Lol. I had youth sunday teh next day so i slept early. Lol. Ok thats it for today. I shall blog abt youth svc tmr n the LG outing tmr. Need to sleep now. Really tired. =].

argh...!

2006-06-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

Im liek so screwed up nowadays. Like u dun really noe howta feel. Im liek down but im happy, im sad but im glad. It feels so ironic lar! ARGH! Wads happening to me nowadays? Haiz. Anyway i just went to jo's blog and the skin is like really nice, she said she made it, so JOANNA PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO CREATE A BLOGSKIN! Haha. Its like suepr weird like i had lots to say b4, but now my mind's a total blank.

Anyway todae we had our class outing, not very successful i must say, but hey at least we tried. Lol. Met alto of ppl today, like ALOT. Haha. Everywhere we go, there are ppl whom i noe of. Im not mr popular, im just mr friendly and mr nicest-guy-on-earth. Lol. Ok im feeling emo again now, like being emo is some sort of disease that just comes and go. Lol. So weird. I dunno. Nowadays, its so weird for me to stay happy. Liek when i was playing pool with qibin serene n shi ting just now, i was so exuberant for one moment. The next thing i knew i was trying to make myself alert n excited, but all i felt was deadness and staleness. No life. Haiz.

I dun really feel like blogging now though i have ltos to say, erm.. i think i shall go change my blogskin today. See how lar. bored. theres syf tmr and i so dread it, nto bcos i dun wanna go for it, but bcos i havta skip church for that, its like so stupid. Why must they make syf on saturdae, but luckily i think ill b able to attend the youth sunday service on sunday. Lol. Im trying to bring ppl too, interested call me ok peeps? Lol. Ok i think thats it for now. I so wanna go church!

the day after exams...

2006-06-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Dun u all feel it? That emptiness after the mid years? After all examinations, theres this empty feeling and u are suddenly tryign to recall all the plans of going out after the examinations. Haha.

Anyway i met up with stanley today at tanjong pagar. I took a cab down and teh freaking indian taxi driver anyhow drive, in the end the fare was like $8.50 lar. Like, i can find a cheaper taxi anywhere else. But its okay lar, im liek the ultimate nice guy on earth. =]. Haha. So after that i went to look for stanley, international plaza is liek a maze lar, i almost got lost there, luckily sociable me managed to get help from the friendly people there. Lol. After that we went to the 26th floor to pay for stanley's dynamic worship 2 thing. $188! When i looked at that amt, i was liek a crumpler bag! Haha. Just kiddin. I was thinking how poor i was. =].

After that we walked down to funan it mall to get himself a mouse n a new game. Lol. I was like hey i have nvr been to funan. Haha. I think its super lame that i havent been to alot of places in city hall n raffles palce. Lol. I wanan go there mroe often next time i think, hopefully ill become more high class. OMG! Im liek super lame, but yah nvm, i bet everyone reading this still loves me and think im cute. Yah im lame. =]. Anyway we walked around but we didnt get anything, then we headed to the KFC/Pizza Hut/Taco Bell thing there and had our lucnh. The palce was liek COLD! I was freezing. Haha. Then kind stanley showed me some really nice videos and really funky videos there. Just to sidetrack a little, i feel so bimbotic suddenly. Lol. I guess it must b bcos i was tokin to bailynette quah juz now. =]. So yah back to my story, the videos were hilarious and teh pictures made me think of how i was liek during the period of time the pic was taken. Liek there was this pic taken on stan's bdae in 2004. Back then i was still a non believer, i guess my life kinda sucked then. Haha. Im so glad that i came to church. =]. Im like sidetracking alot nowdays. Yah so anyway after that we went to really buy his game and mouse. Then guess what? We saw dilys! Shocking rite. Haha. But we left soon lar, then stanley went to church while i went to candy empire!!!

Candy emprie is like the best palce on earth. With the ultimate nice guy on earth going to the best palce on earth, its like Ultimate combo! Haha. Im really lame, i need to c doctor le. =]. So i was like talking to sally on the phoen the whoel time, suaning her cos she still has bio tmr. Bio ppl really quite poor thing, so much to leanr. Haha.So anyway i bought for quite alot of ppl stuff lar. Like sally wanted sours, i got a sours for sharon too. My sisters wanted the gel thing. Dilys wanted one too. Then i bought for myself anth sours, the squirts sweet thign and this small tube of sweet. Lol. The bill was like $23.40. Lol lar. Its so expensive candy empire. So anyway after that i went home.

Tmr tehre's class outing, i guess ill blog tmr, im like tired now. Sleepy! Tmr wud b a fun day. Like alot of ppl are goin. Okay i guess that will be it, though i feel like blogging ALOT more todae. I guess thats enuff. Moderate! Liek tehy say, too much of something is no good. Too much lester is no good for all of u too. =] =] =].

mid years are over...!

2006-06-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

YAYNESS! The mid years are like over, but I guess I would fail all my papers. Haha. Like you noe, to me mid years are not that important, like I wudnt pay so much attention to it, but yupz. Lol. Anyway todae we had our last paper and i strongly think that matsh is liek killer paper, cos i didnt have time to finish it and i left alot of blanks here and there, but oh wells, i didnt study very much. =].

After sch 2dae, a grp of us went to far east, some had their lunch at subway, while the rest of us went to eat chicken rice. Like so weird lar, i still cant the fact that far east has FAMOUS chicken rice stalls. Like so dislocated like that. Haha. So anyway after that i went to stay in subway wif qi bin, henry, charmaine and some of the choir peeps and i stoned and slept. Slping at 2 in the morning, made me liek REALLY tired. Haha. So anyway catching 40 winks then was i think a really good idea. Went to meet up wif toi and the rest again at wisma when the choir gals went shopping. Lol. Girls just cant stop shopping. =].

At wisma, i went to starbucks and shared a java chip wif henry. Java chip is like the BESTEST drink ever in starbucks! And oh rem to ask them to add extra chocolate sauce and chocolate chips. I noe its like the ultimate sinful drink, but yah who cares. =]. So anyway we slacked the rest of the time there and then we headed down to lido to catch silent hill. GRUESOME SHOW! Remidn me nvr to watch another horror movie again. I get freaked out. Such disgusting shows and no wodner they rate it nc16! Lol. Anyway the show's liek really weird and disgusting. At first when u dunno wads goin on, u tend to get scared easily. However, as the story progresses, the plot becomes so much mroe evident and it isnt as scary, just DISGUSTING! EEEEEEEEeeeee! I will never watch that show or any kind of movie of that genre as best as i can. =]. So after the movie, we all happily went to heeren to look for jo rachell and ryan. We shopped like until 7 and then we decided to go for dinner.

Our original plan was to eat sakae, sadly since there wasn't sushi buffet, so it really isnt that worth it, hence the whole grp of us went around to find places to eat. That was b4 some of them decided to go look for watches. The rest of us waited and then we went off to cine, after being so exuberant, telling Jo how subway was like. Jo has nvr eaten in subway b4, thats liek super cool and rare, cos like i tot almost all the cjcians hav eaten there alredi. =]. So anyway in the end we changed our plans cos some ate subway for lunch so in the end we ended up in long john's. After dinner, we went hm. =]. Happy dae.

Oh yah, so many interesting stuff has been happening during this period of examinations. For one, i found a really interesting blog, which i shall let it remain anonymous. Haha. Also, i foudn out some really hilarious stuff abt shy amos lim. Haha. A really nice new song! Soem facts abt other frenz here n dere. And most importantly to b lucky enuff to hav ur mid yrs end earlier then ur classmates. =]. T34 ppl shud noe y. =] =] =].

exams...!

2006-06-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Ok im liek so screwed, tomorrow there's econs mid years and im still blogging. Haha. Anyway i just need to blog now. I feel so inspired to haha. Ok so here goes nothing.

I had history mid years on friday and oh chem SPA. I think it was fairly okay, nothing much lar, was planning to fail history anyway, i got liek c6 for english last yr, dun expect much. Haha. So anyway chem SPA was good, angela teh said very good. Lol. So anyway i really hope to do well for my chem. =].

Anyway i have been more involved with church this holiday, so many things have happened. Like my family, the LG thingy, exams. Haha. Somehow i really marvel at how God gives us the strength and determination to live on. Faith in God is really important in our lives, and im really glad that God is living in me! =]. Yah back to the blog post, so anyway i really feel that God is moving in my life and the stupdi enemy, liek jeremy said, is really workign hard to attack me, but looks liek God has better plans than the devil can think of. Haha. So anyway i really hope to see our LG moving on, its been so long that we have stagnated but yeah, we will move on! Yayness! Everyone in P.O.W.E.R M&M's, we will REALLY be People Of Worship! Evangelism! Revival! and we will and we must Mature nad Multiply! Haha. Somehow i feel so emotional and so motivated to write abt the LG and my spiritual life, but i guess i shall leave it to anth time. =].

So anyway i went studying with serene and hao feng today, they had a good tiem studyign with me i think. Haha. What to do? Im a fantastic study buddy! Haha. Oh i forgot to mention its like my 1 year old spiritual bdae today! 1 year ago i accepted Christ into my life. =] =] =]. I so didnt regret doing that! Oh yah back to my entry, somehow i always get distracted nowadays. Haha. So haofeng left afetr awhile, den serene was studyign ecosn with me. Liek almost 7, i went to the toilet, when i came back this 2 kids were disturbing serene. She was liek freaked out lar. Haha. I was laughign at her when all of a sudden teh 2 kids came to disturb me. Haiz. So sad lar. Then she laugh at me. Haha. After that we ran away and went for dinenr at united food court, after that we went to walk around novena square den go home. Tomorrow got exam. Must chiong le ok thats it.

Oh im liek so in love with this song. Its called Letters From War. Enjoy!

life's liek taht...

2006-06-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

Haha. Its been so long since the last time i blogged. So many things to say but its so hard to compress everything and remember everything. Lol. So anywhere heres what has happened since teh last time i blogged. =].

I went for some church camp on the 13 n 14. It was called night of encounter. It started off with this ice breakers which turned out to be liek super lame. Haha. Im so sorry to the organizers, u all must understand im liek SO matured compared to the little ones. =]. So anyway after that, ps ben preached abt soemthing on our hurts. I wasnt feelign very good spiritually and so i walked out of the annex. In the end, i guess God was liek so great, so He kinda made daryl pray for me after i returned. I felt so much better and all. All teh hurts in my lfie from sicne yougn came gushign in, looks liek i really need some sort of delievrance for that. Haha.

So anyway after that we had lunch and then daryl talked to us abt RCC and our roles in church. It was liek super funny, cos they didnt liek really give daryl much respect cos he's seen as teh funny and crappy guys. So yah haha. Anyway what he talekd to us abotu was liek really really cool and it sorta like make me more hungry for God after that. Dunno why? Power of God. =]. So after the talk we had mroe games. This time they were even mroe childish (really sry to the organisers again!) and i didnt join in cos i didnt wan to get myself wet. Yayness! So after that we all washed up and then we had this "service" on deliverance. Dilys came from school and joined us. Hao feng came too but he was late as per usual =].

So back to my story, anyway the deliverance thing was SUPERB! I guess it was really an eye opener for me. I saw how spirits manifest and how they were delivered. Like there were some spirits who were really scary, and then there are those who juz went subtly. So anyway i was delivered from my own spirits. So it was not a really good experience, liek u start feelign nubm all over and the feeliong is unbearable, btu after that the feeling is totally awesome. U cant really describe such stuff, liek they say, a picture says a thousand words. Imagine how many words i hav to say even for that brief moment. =]. So anyway i hope that i dun get myself too involved in my own areas of sin and i pray God that u help me to just break free of my bondages. =].

That abt sums up my 3rd week, sicne nothing really memorable happened. Attempted to meet up for class outigns but all turned otu to be failures. And jo im not pissed off. Haha. So anyway back to my story. Since i couldnt manage to meet up with the people, i ended up wif fernie most of the time, loyal class outing go-er. Lol. However third week wasnt much of a big deal for my studying, didnt even attempted to study. So yup thats it.

Fourth week of teh holidays, so soon the holidays will end. Im liek so freakign sad that i wouldnt b able to wake up for school and all the taxing problems and stuff i hav to handle for council in the days to come. So anyway i kidna studied qutie abit. Monday went to study with samuel and hao feng at untied starbucks. Really productive, i got in qutie alot for maths. Then on tues, i went to kap macs with sally and christine. Strangely, lots of ppl that i noe were at kap, so i liek kidna noe almsot half teh ppl there. Haha. Then anyway we managed to study qutie alot too, at least for me. Finished chem. Then today i went to study econs with ben seck. Not very productive for him and i wasnt very efficient though i managed to cover almost everything. Haha. Tmr we hav prayer, so i guess i will go study hist, then prayer, then study again until liek 9pm. So ill b ready for fri's hist. Mid years are ending soon. Haha. Think on the bright side everyone. =].

thinking...

2006-06-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Ok im liek really really worried now, there are lots of tots running in my mind now and im really freaking confused. Firstly, theres mid years comign up then tehres the family problem thingy den there are other stuff to worry about. Gosh my life is so filled with problems. What makes it worse is that problems tend to come liek all together and nto seperately, so i need lots of time and concentration to get over some stuff. Haiz.

OK first things first, mid years are liek coming in liek really soon, as in REALLY REALLY REALLY SOON! Sad thign is i havent even started studying. Blame it on teh stupid camps. Lol. Anyway i think i cna mange to scrape through, no choice but to start mnugging, the first timr in my life. MUG. Lol. Ok i think that will do.

Secondly would be my dad. Ok, this is liek really coming at teh wrong time cos u c im liek really busy and abt to embark on this night of encounter at church. Then my fatehr starts to query me abt my frenz, checks my hp msges and request to read my blog. Like why wud he ask all this all of a sudden. Whats creepy is that he givs that "i noe u are hiding something from me and i noe what it is" kidna face. I mean liek some would say im paranoid but, my father is one sneaky guy and his tots are like really hard to comphrehend, so yah. Anyway im just hoping he doesnt think too much and forget abt it over time.

Next would be all the trivial problems here n there and oso problems with frenz and all. Somehow i feel i hav liek so drifted from the ppl i was once so close to. Emo i noe. But haha. Then tehre are liek my fren's relationships problems. I dunno why btu sometimes i just get dragged into stuff liek tt. Its quite ncie at first to c hwo blissful they r, n then the next moment u c everything evaportaing away. And thats sad. Liek totally.

Okay, im liek seriouslly sianz diao now. Hiaz. To end htings off wif a lightern ote, im liek eating lots of ice cream. Hey, lol. Thats not soemthign to b happy abt, im gaining weight. Haha. Anyway i ate liek island creamery wif councilors on fri nite, a pitn of ben and jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough on sat nite anth pint of ben and jerry's mix of sweet cream and cookies and dubin mudslide wif the LG ppl and some ice cream cake tontie. OMG! Im getting fat. Haha. But oh wells, i guess thats it. Ciaoz.

elects camp...

2006-06-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

The 32nd Student Council rawks!!! Council is liek the best CCA ever, and all the CJCians out there reading this entry, i noe the identity of the new President of the Student Council. =] =] =].

Today started as a fairly happy day, we woke up rather early in the morning and assembled at the quadrangle b4 paying our $6 for our meals. After awhile, we were led to the grandstand, there, we were instructed to play some sort of amazing race sort of game. It revolved mainly abt the sch's history kidna stuff. Was kinda happy cos our group was teh smallest group and we had an injured laura. However we managed to get like 2nd highest score. So we were all really proud of ourselves. Everyone in the group were really nice people. Next we went on to plan for teacher's day.

Teacher's day celebration was i think fairly well done overall. Like every group had their own ideas, but we couldnt run away from the concert thing, so it was really qutie dull. Haha. Im not boastign here, but i tot our group was most well done, liek we tot of every loophole that could take place, we palnned for both J1's and J2's. It was superb. Lol. So anyway after that, we went to have our dinner in the canteen. Our fantastic caterer, Chinese Wok, never fails to spoil our appetite. Lol. Im just kiddin. The food wasnt that bad on teh whole, we ate quite alot and then we went to the CSR room for our PRESIDENT election.

President election was like the most waste time process of teh day. We spent like almost half the day doing nothing very productive. We were eachg given a slip of paper to vote for our ideal presidents. Then the teachers sorted out the names and we were given yet another slip of paper. It was down to the top 4, Shawn Lee, Moses, Alfred and EK. I voted for Shawn, part of it was that he's SJI. Lol. The other reasons were that i really see in him a good leader lar, can play can lead can also score well academically. Haha. However the teachers took liek REALLY long. The next thing we knew, we were given another slip of paper to write down our preference of our council president top 3. So we spent liek more den an hr or so for the voting and the teachers tokin part. Then the 4 of them were sent off to be interviewed by Bro.Paul. While they were having their interviews, we were playing games and all. Then we played Who? What? Huh? Somehow the game became such a fad within the council, we had lots of fun laughing. Then we played zong ji mi ma and all of us couldnt stop laughing at all the weird forfeits especially when amelia kenna forfeit cos we always made fun of her and sean lee. Haha. Okay after that we went back to our seats cos the 4 of tehm were back. Finally teh results were out. Moses got in!!! Kinda disappointed at first lar, cos liek i really tot shawn would get it, liek he's really nice and all, but maybe moses wasnt such a bad idea i tot. Haha. So anyway im being really positive abt this. =] =] =].

Next we went on to vote for our vice presidents. Another roudn of time wasting , we were liek voting over and over again. So much so that we were all really bored. Oh i forgot to mention that we were plannning for grad ntie for the J2's. Its liek really cool, cos their fate lies in our hands. =]. Muahahahaha. Im nto taht evil lar. =]. Then so anyway we came up with liek really wacky ideas but its all up to moses to decide. Later we went to play this game in teh audit extention. It was somesort of liek volleyball, except that we had to use our T-shirts to hold the balls. Our grp won with the golden goal thingy. Speaking of which, its time for the 1st soccer match those who havent started watching pelase do. =]. So back to my story, after that we went to wash up and went back to the CSR room. It was cool lar i guess. Then we got the new VP's. For the CA wing, we had Timothy and for SA it was Shawn Lee, for CI wing it was Jasmine. All really good people with really good capabilities. Then we were told of which wing we would fall under.

I was so happy taht i got in into CI wing, then again not many people voted for CI wing. CI wing is like the funnest place ever, those people who think SA is that fantastic is liek super wrong, CI is the place where most of the fun stuff are oragnised by. So anyway i could tell alot of the people who got into CI wasnt very happy. After much persuasion and discussion, i guess some felt bttr. Mr leong spoke to us too. Then we went to choose our HOD's and the council administrator. Another voting session. Haiz. After that it was dinner time.

In CI, we have Jasmine as the VP, we have Feline, Julius, Trey, Charmaine and me in CIP department and in Special Projects, we had EK, Sean Lee, Song Im, Joanne and Vanessa. I think we were all quite cold lar, but during dinner, we were like really laughing away and all of us got quite comfortable with each other. I think council would be liek uber fun. =]. So anyway after dinner, we had some sort of prayer service. We were made to write our names down on a card and write our idea of what a leader is like on the back. Wei Xin couldnt stop laughing. Lol. So anyway we went on and build a "sculpture" with the cards and everyone was happy. Oh and this are the HOD's. For CA Liturgy, we had ethel, for Music we had Denise and for Formation, it was Alex. For the SA wing, under college affairs we had alfred and for Student Liason, we had wei xin. For the bets wing ever, CI, we had Feline for CIP and EK for special projects. That was the exco of the student council. =] =] =]. The prayer service was really sweet and everyone was liek really happy and all. So proud of all of us there.

After the whole camp had ended, the whole grp of us went down to island creamery at serene centre for ice cream. It was really funny, we were telling dirty jokes, jokes and weird stories, or just gossiping. The ironic thing was that all the dirty jokes came from CA wing, so yup. Lol. At about 10, me and pet walked to the bus stop and we went home. Council rawks, and i dun think anyone should think about quitting. =] =] =].

back from camp...

2006-06-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! IM BACK FROM CAMP!!! Dun get me wrong, i love the camp. Haha. Be prepared for a super long entry today. Lol.

Okay it all started on Day 1, wasnt that bad if you ask me, we were split up into grps alredi in teh pre-camp, at first i had doubts abt my grp u c, didnt really liek n noe the ppl well, so i desperately wanted out. Haha. But luckily i stayed on. So anyway day 1 was really all abt talks, the DISC profile and all. I foudn out that im this high S personality and that im liek qutie steady and dun really like to adapt to changes and all the normal kinda stuff. Then we palyed games and all. There was this one crazy games where teh participants were blindfolded and they had to to put their hands into this container that had liek Faeces!!! Frogs!!! Mealworms!!! and there was of cos the jelly that they had to dig out. Crazy ppl. Lol. Then shamir and moses had to stuff their head into this big bowl of mealworms and they ahd to get out 2 gold coins. Sick trainers. Then we went on to play games, not bad, quite challenging and all and really scary. We cheered everyoen on and we were thoroughly enjoyign ourselves i would say. Oh did i mention, their lunch and tea and dinner was great! As in like comapred to all the camps that i hav ever went to this was perhaps teh best meal ever. Then after that were mroe talks and finally supper, we later headed to our bunks and slept. The floor was hard and the weather was freezing. That brings us to Day 2.

Day 2 was more physical than Day 1. We went to Yishun Safra. We practically slept throughout the bus journey. Boring boring boring. Then we alighted soon enough and assembled at this empty space. We played our grp's bonding game. Who? What? Huh? Its a relaly lame game but at least it keeps our grp going. Fun nevertheless i must say. All teh weird dares that we havta do and all. Lol. So off we ewnt to our 1st task. The 12 grps were split into 2 main grps. The 1st 6 grps went to do the rock climbing and the other 6 went off to do some sort of amazing race thing. We went to do rock climbing 1st and then i saw charmaine climb the rock wall. I was freaking scared lar. Im afraid of heights u c. I noe im afraid alot of stuff, but must understand ppl got weak heart. Haha. So anyway charmaine was doing well, i cheered for her noe. Then i told one of my team mates that i was so motivated by charmaine that if she can do it so can i. Lol. Guess what happened? Bro. Paul heard wad i said and told me cheered me on to do the rock wall. Bad timing! Argh. Haha. Luckiyl the rain came and we went to find shelter, my chances of going up the rock wall was ruined. Bro Paul even told me "its too bad" (not sarcastically). And bcos of that, he noes my name now. Haiz. Haha. After that we went into this room, supposedly fro rock climbing and we all enjoyed ourselves by playing our fav bonding game again. Then we were interrupted by teh SAFRA trainer and we had some sort of a challenge. Our grp was not too bad, but we lost all 3 activities. Haha. We have lots of gals u c. =]. Then we proceeded to have a really scrumptous lunch, supposedly from imperial kitchen. Lol. Then we continued with our activities. Thsi time round, we switched wif grps 6-12 and we played teh amazing race thing. Our 1st task was making a square wif the rope. Lousy lar. Lol. We didnt really make the square very nicely. Lol. We wasted qutie soem time doing it anth time but it was worht it. Oh i frogot to mention, each activity could earn us 250k max, our target was 1million. So in that activity we got liek 150k. Not bad for starters. We next proceeded to this activity where we had to use our fingers to hold to the bottom on a hoola hoop and to move this special hoola hoop down to the ground. EASY RIGHT? NO! The hoop was suppsoedly to be some sort of helium thingy, so it could liek somehow "float", so we really had a hard tiem to put the hoop down, further mroe our fingers couldnt move away from the hoop or we had to restart. We did it really fast though and then we ha a bonsu roudn where alfred was blindfolded, we managed to get it down again. So wif the bonus, we got ourselves 350k, taht makes half a million. =]. The next activity was the treasure hunt, we ran around the place alot and in the end we onli got like 100k, so we were really disappointed. Haiz. Haha. But the next activity really got us all erm... Drained? Lol. It was called teh great wall of china, but it was really lame cos they said that we had to climb over this rope tied between 2 trees taht had "electricity". So it was really called electric fence. Weird? Haha. So our objetcive was to carry everyone over without touching the rope or we had to start over. It was not bad, kidna easy, onli thing was the rain made the palce REALLY MUDDY! so we got all our slacks and shoes muddy. Wei Xin sacrificed and her slacks were really horrible. Noble gal. =]. Then we headed over to the canopy walk thing. We wasted one full hour doing nth and in the end we didnt get to do teh canopy walk but we did rock climbing again. I went up this time and teh team was cheering me, so it felt really good. Haha. After that we went off. Oh i forgot to mention we got a total of 1.35 million. YAYNESS! Haha. Then we headed back to school and had dinner b4 we went over to wash up and went to our talk. Isaac Lim was there to torture us. Crazy guy, super lame lar him, he htink he very funny. For example he said, "Some of you think im not fair, thats because im always in the sun" Lame fellow. Lol. He made us do pumping jumping jacks and soem other stuff. He talked to us for abt 1 hr and then we were asked to go to bed. The next day's activity was even worse. Julius was slping beside me and he was like imitating isaac lim's voice so i was liek askign him to shuddup. Lol.

Day 3 was a really horrible day. Haha. We traveled really early inthe mornign to sembawang and we were given 17 tasks in hope of completing each and everyoen of them. There were lots of challenges and puzzles and we had to solve teh riddles b4 proceeding. We were also given a medicine ball a cone and a hoola hoop to carry. The very first task was to tell teh odac facil in cahrged, doris, 2 anagrams. One was sotrich and teh other was england. Then we started trekking liek 2.8km. The next task was to do like 100 push ups for every missing 100+ bottle. We were told to brign them, so becos zixiang didnt birng his, we all had to do like 100 each. Then we had to run down to i think it was sembawang jetty and dip ourselves in the water. Count 1-10 b4 we could come up. Smart me forgot to take out my wallet, luckily all the notes are dry now. =]. Then we went on to walk and walk and finally arrived at our 3rd destination. We had to slide down this really fast slide, identify a fragipani tree, a stag horn fern, some other trees plants and all b4 heading over to the badminton court. At the badminton court, we saw charmaine's grp doing kangaroo hops, we all ahd our torchlights so we didnt hav to do that. We cheered for them then we went on to our next task. We had to find this "strangled" house. Plants were literally growing all aroudn this small building so i guess taht was the so called strangled house then we went to next task. This time round, we had to do touch 2 things. One was soem weird 5 digit no. the other was oso anth 5 digit no. We were all kinda clueless to wad it was. The hitn they gave was something liek this "995H20REDT@Kang Xi.Louis XIV..Victoria.Rd" Weird rite? In teh end we figured that it was teh fire hydrants and then we walked around king's avenue and queen's avenue. It was really torturous cos we didnt seem to able to find teh hydrants. We spent liek 45mins-1hr walking. Then we skipped the task. Later doris told us we foudn teh hydranst juz that we didnt noe it. So we walked down to pakistan road. Didnt noe such a road existed. Then we headed to the parkign lot and completed this puzzle. Qibin's grp kidna sad lar. They were the 1st grp there or so i heard, and they wasted an hr tryign to figure out the puzzle. In the end they ended up to be 2nd last. We saw them when we arrived, when we left they were still there. We spent abt a min or so. Then we had to look for The Ashram and St. Andrew's Chapel/Cathedral. Cant really rem wad it was. Haha. Then the next thing we did was to walk to cananda road. Weird road name again i noe. Then we had to run down the road in 10 secs and we had to find teh tembusu tree and say "HELLO TEMBUSU TREE!". Next task was to find the green sea and find teh 4 square islands. It was located at bermuda road. Then teh green sea was really a really large plot of grass and the 4 square isalnds were really manholes. So we ha to carry each other across the 4 islands and we did it really well. Then we went on to find Delhi. We had to walk and find this empty plot of land called Delhi on the map, and start singing the national anthem. Lame. Haha. Then we went on to the next task. We had to shout out our sec sch motto and then find 4 schs and find out their mottos. The schools were liek really far apart but we continued at it. By this time, we were all really drained. Then we compelted this task that required us to climb up 20 floors. We did it and went back all tired and sweaty. On the way back we were hceering each other on and motivating each other. Really fun experience and we learn alot.

Back at school, everyoen had some sort of injury. Haha. Then we had lunch b4 heading down to a short talk and then went to paly games. My eyes became so swollen that i couldnt particiapte in nay of teh atcivities and i had the privellge of going to bathe early and slpet in the canteen. Then we went to LT2 for anth quiz. I found out i was a supporter and it was qutie common. Lol. Then we went to have a really good dinner. BUffet! Then we went to the audi to hav anth talk abt shackleton. Song Im was really ncie to bring me a bottle of eye drops and poor vanessa and joanne had a headache. It was good and we had a cheering competition, grp 1 got royce choclate and we all shared it with the bengawan cake we had for supper. We then made cards fro our teachers and facils. At supper, we played our fav bonding game again. Haha. Then we all headed to slp. =]. Everyone was glad that teh camp was finally ending.

Finally on the fourth day, which is today. We woke up early to hav morning exercise and then we had a bad breakfast then we proceeded to have our individual talks. At the council talk, mr leong was telling us how we were split up tmr and all the porgrammes we had tmr. Qutie sianz u noe, liek havta go for camp again. Haha. But we are all glad that we can c each other again. Then we went to pack our stuff b4 heading to the audi to have teh closing prayer svc. It was really nice, we had this photo presentation of the events in the few days. We all luaghed and all and made lots of weird noices and clapping our hands the whole time. Oh we sang a really nice hymn. Haha. Then Bro Paul talked to the whole grp of leaders. He best lar, talked abt me some more, everything he heard at SAFRA he went to tell the entire group and even mentioned my name. Lol. It was really embarassing. Haha. Then he went on and on while i almost fell asleep. Then we had teh lighting up of the candles. Then we sang the school song. It was perhaps one of the best times singing the sch song. Then we gave out the cards we made the nite b4 and clapped our hands all the way. Haha. Lastly we all gathered around and had some sort of rounding up session. Then we played our favourite game again. Zixiang and Wei Xin had to do a double dare and hug mr tan jek suan. Lol. Then we all bid farewell and left the audi. That was the end of my LTC '06. Not bad i would say. =] =] =].

changi airport...

2006-06-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

Today was a really fun day at the airport, met up with some of teh t34's to send teh band ppl off. I noe its lame, but oh wells, at least i tried to organise a class outing. In the end there were only fernie, ryan, serene, shi ting and slingx and of cos teh fabulous me. Haha. Quite pathetic.. i noe. Lol.

So anyway we all were late, so poor henry had to wait for us, after that we went to hav lunch, intended to hav lunch at popeye's. But it didnt go so well, so we change our target to burger king, was suepr full after eating the x2 mushroom swiss. Haha. So anyway after that i tried to make henry treat us all ncie souls to swensens, but it didnt turn out really well, so we just waited n waited utnil rachell came. Abt liek 3, rachell arrived wif han qi, her bf, she wanted to walk towards the gang of band ppl, but bro paul was tehre so she had to make a detour and tied up her hair. Super lame lar. Lol. So anyway we finally gathered and lets say we waited abt 20 mins, b4 we finally took a picture together. After that, ryan left to meet his frenz for pool, while the rest bade rachell henry and nicholas goodbye, oh joanna came and join us too after her chatlet. After that, serene and shi ting left too.

So we went walking around n headed over to terminal 2's burger king to study. On teh way, we saw the miniature candy empire and teh place sucks lar, so small. Haha. But we bought abt 8 dollars worth of chocolates and candy and went to study at burger king. All went well until my sis told me she was at the mrt station, so we all had to move to the basement macs to avoid them from catching me. Haha. Joanna went to wash her hair super lame lar. Xi ling left us as well. Haiz. We attempted to study but failed msierbaly, i fell asleep while fernie copied wadeva notes i had on my econs notes. Haha. Then we started playing shoot shag or marry, this really weird game taught by jo. Super funny game, but in the end the answers were quite standardised lar, so not really very exciting. Later, ryan came back to join us after his pool and he had to suffer playing that lame game too. Haha. Then we played anth lame game, oso intro to us by jo, it was called erm.. i nvr? Lol. So teh objective was to liek sabo others. For example one of teh statements i made was "i do not hav a piercing" so the rest hu hav piercings have to "donate" $0.10 to our the pool and the accumulated amt wud b used to buy soemthing for all of us to share. Innocent me had to pay $2 while the rest payed abt $2.50 and ryan $3. Haha.

At abt 9pm, we headed to the foodcourt bcos fernie wanted to catch the 9pm channel 8 show. So lame lar, but nice souls liek us accompanied her there. =]. Then while watching we continued our i nvr game and then we were so bored with it and so jo intro us a new game called kings. Super embarassing and disgusting game. We had to lick fingers, seat on lap and hug, lick ear, lick neck and erm kiss. Lol. Joanna wanted to watch show, but in the end she kanna like mad, lol. Super funny, worse thing was that she n ryan kenna most and ryan would b liek ocmplaining, super funny. At abt liek 10, we went home. Me and fernie attempted to get a cab at bugis, in the end we walked to city hall and we took a bus home. GRRR. I saw 10 empty cabs on my way home. So fed up. Haha. Ok thats it. Our class rawks!

x-men...

2006-05-31T20:21:00.000+08:00

I had ecosn tutorial again today and it was a really boring time, the whoel grp of us, christine, bay, sally, rose and me were like talking the whoel time. So boring lesson. The stupid mr leong caught me for playing christine's hair. Lol. How come cannot play with teh hair, its super comfortable and she doesnt really mind wad. Haha. So anyway i asked the class to go for class outing at town, watch x-men. But b4 anyone decided to go, we had lunch at subway.

Lunching at subway wasnt a really bad time, except that henry was suaning me that he got a bttr subway deal compared to me and serene. GRRR... Haha. But anyhow, i raised the qn of watching x men again. In the end, it was suppose to be me bay chrisitne xiangli henry watching. Not too bad rite? Wrong! Christine decided not to watch the show. Henry went to cut hair and play pool, bay went to meet marianne. So it was only me and sally. Super sad lar our class outing, so in teh end we went to watch the show. It was real funny cos since there were only the 2 of us, the ticket seller guy suggested taht we get coupel seats. Haha. We were laughing the whoel time, but we still got the coupel seats, sally said it was mroe comfortable. Haha. It was indeed much mroe comfortable and i enjoyed the show thoroughly, except for the fact that the ending was rather stupid. Haha.

Met up wif bay n her frenz again. Thsi time we spent hell lots of time tokin nonsense. Haha. Her frenz were really nice ppl too. Haha. Oh did i mention taht i met sharon huang and phyllis. The 2 of them are superb lar. Like u noe they still keep on contact wif each other even after liek SO long. Then we started tokin alot of crap abt pei chun. Lol. All the fun times we had and all. It was great lar. Then i went back to cap wif bay n gang. Oh i was waiting for rachell so that i cna b her slave while she shops, in the end she ps me lar, so i had to go hm after my macs dinner. Haha. TOO MUCH lar she. Lol. But since im liek such a nice guy, i forgive her. Ok now im planning the class outing at changi to send them off tmr. =]. Ok bb now.

outing...

2006-05-31T20:08:00.000+08:00

Had a boring day of school yesterday, worse den normal sch day. Had chem tutorial from 9 to 1030, den had ecosn tutorial from 11 to 1230, finally had matsh tutorial from 2 to 430. Totally crazy day. Lol.

Was suppose to meet the cell at 6 for movie, so i had like lotsa time to kill, took 151 from sch down to hougang with serene and xiangli. Haha. I noe everyone must b thinking im too free. Haha. Anyway talked alot in the bus, laughing all the time den went to find a photocopying shop to photocopy my ic. My dad wants it for some weird hospital thing. Haha. Then we started chatting at macs until like 540, i hurriedly took nel down to PS.

Luckily, i arrived at 6 on the dot, so i didnt kenna any scoldings, haha. Saw dilys and stanley, the rest were on the way or were in trumpet praise. So anyhow, we tried to get tickets for over the hedge, it didnt tyrn out really weel u c, there wasnt any tickets left, so we split up into 2 grps and went to lido and cine to c whether we can get any tickets. No luck either, so we met up at wisma food republic for dinner. =].

After dinner, they all wanted to go home lar, so instead i suggested we go walk walk, since its the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE. Lol. We walked around heeren and finally landed up at the neopritns shop. Since we hav nvr really taken a neoprint as a LG b4, i suggested we take one. It was hilarious and then we spent liek almost 45 mins there. Haha. Suepr funny lar, didnt noe time passed so fast. Then since it was getting late, we all went home. Super fun.

let the fats begin...

2006-05-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! I NEED TO EXERCISE!!! Lol. Today was ltos of fun plus lots of ULTRA FATTENING food. Haha. Had chem lecture in school, was super bored so i sneaked out to the canteen and had noodle king. Lol. I went back to the lecture theatre uncaught. Haha. After that most of the people in the class went to have our lunch at Prince Cafe at coronation plaza. It was a super fun time. Me and xiangli were dying to get to candy empire, but oh wells, we had no choice but to wait.

After lunch, there were ppl liek qi bin and jun hoe that needed to get back to sch, so we bade our farewells to them, oso there were arthur and angeline whom went their seperate ways home. Haha. Me, xiangli, serene, shi ting, charmaine, joanna and themis went down to millenia walk for CANDY EMPIRE!!! OMG!!! That place liek totally rawks lar. Haha. I was liek totally stunned, dunno wad to buy at all. Haha. Then liek spend half an hr to an hr juz deciding on wad to get. After much consideration, i finally spend liek $17 bucks on candies n chocos. Haha. Then since charmaine was havign her sub way diet, we went subway for her lunch. Haha. I couldnt resist the brownie there, so i bought one to eat. Then we started crapping and all until they had to leave, so it was left wif juz me xiangli n themis. T_T. Lol.

We waited for awhile and i headed to the toilet. Goodness. I saw this ang moh gay. Super funny. Haha. Then i went to meet xiangli and themis, b4 fernie and toi came. Haha. Fernie wanted ben and jerry's so much. Haha, in the end cos tehre wasnt a ben and jerry's there, we had haagen daaz. =]. We got the chocolate fondue thing and GOODNESS it was like heavenly. We used all the marshmallow from fernie's chatlet leftovers and licked the whole pot of chocolate dry. Yummy~! The cookie they served was so chocolately and then there were fruits and all. OMG!!! Haha.

After that geavenly treat, we went to shop, ok i didnt really shop, no.. i mean i didnt even shop. Haha. The gals went on a shopping spree and bought and tried stuff. Haha. It was qutie tiring waiting for them, but nevertheless it was FUN!!! That went on for abt 1-2 hrs. Gals can REALLY shop. Haha. Then xiangli had to leave, so we accompanied her out all the way to suntec b4 we went to take a bus to GREAT WORLD CITY. Fernie wanted ben and jerry's badly. Oh did i mention that i got shi lin too? Haha. =].

At great world city, we chiong-ed straight away to ben and jerry's. Yup. 2 Ice-cream stalls in a day. How fattening can that be?!?! Lol. Anyway we dug into dubin mudslide and chocolate chip cookie dough. The combination was deadly, we couldnt resist digging into that scrumptous pint of ice cream. Oh, one of the gals working there( did anyone realise ben and jerry's are always runned by gals?) toked to me, asking abt cjc and oso asking me whether i was from SJI. She said i had SJI face. Haha. I attempted to get more ice cream from her, sadly that tactic failed miserably. Haha. So anyway the 2 of us finally managed to get the ice cream into our bellies, we then decided to head home. I accompanied fernie to the bus stop to get her bus then i went back to the taxi stand to get a cab. I waited for like 20mins?!?! GRRRR... Luckily i had ice cream or i wud hav strangled the cab driver. Haha. The fare wasnt that expensive, like $4.10. Haha. So anyway im thinking of methods to rid myself off teh extra calories. Lol. Thats it for now. Oh yah, rachell u seriously missed the shopping adventure. =] =] =].