lumière de monde
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
And You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
matt redman
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Friday, July 27, 2007
I totally LOVE my life! My life rawks i tell u ppl. I hav 2 really LOVING parents n i LOVE them so very much for all the LOVE they have poured into my life. Words simply cant express how much i LOVE them, i think my life liek totally rawks~! =].
Well it all started abt a couple of hrs ago, ok mayb since there are parallels to other similar scenarios in the past its not quite juz a couple of hrs ago. wadeva it is, my dad juz came happily strolling past, n he told me soemthing that blew my mind away! He told me that i should work harder like his wadeva wadeva fren and one of his sons whom i dun really bother to noe much abt, except that my dad keeps filling me wif information abt him. So this really smart guy got liek double degrees in university or soemthing, suppiose to hav some exchange programme thing. Liek so smart rite? Liek wow! Im totally excited abt hearing everything abt it n i feel so motivated to study. And my dad ask me to get some scholarship n all. N then comes my wise mother who asks my dad to "forget it la, he can go to U already very happy le" Such wise words coming from my mother's mouth. I feel so comforted that i hav such an understanding mother who exactly knows my standard. I told u i simply LOVE this ppl. And then my dad seems kinda shocked, n he turns to me and asks me whether i really go out to study or do i go out n do other stuff. U noe liek play lan, smoke, take drugs, waste money, doing something illegal, soemthing along that lines, u get wad im driving at. N den i said yah im studying, and then he goes on liek "then y she(my mom) keeps saying such stuff?" sounding really surprised n puzzled. So in my innocence i said "yea, u dunno meh, she always like that de since primary sch, u dun believe ask shermin(my sis) la" And then he continued "are u sure not? are u gg out to study?", n once again i confirmed my stand. And then he actually INTELLIGENTLY said the same thing, "den y she still liek that" i got a sense of dejavu, but pretending that i havent said anythign before i said "yea i really did study" all this while my mom kept silent. n den my dad proceeded "u bttr get good results, get scholarship, u can go u not?" and then the silent one spoke "haiyo that is a big question mark" n i was like "how i noe whether i can go u? Liek i take o lvls le i oso dunno whether i can go jc or nto rite? until the resutls out den i noe mah" n he said "how cna u not noe?!" i was really puzzled by his increase in his tone of voice n i said "really wad" n den he scolded me, he said "r u really studying or not?" by this time i was getting a little frustrated n stood firm in my stand, but den he went back to the same old point, "den y she say such things?" i was liek "i really got study la" n den he looked really angry (i really didnt noe y) n den he walked away, so did my mom.
At the end of this saga, a new story began to unfold. I got the army letter reminding me of the medical check up this fri, so when he walked pass me once again n ask me abt the letter, i said i was gg for the checkup on fri. He asked me whether i noe the place n i said i udnno, but i can ask my frenz, since practically everyone has been there alredi. N then he started shouting again "everything oso dunno! everything oso ask fren, liek no mind of ur own, ur frenz all die le den how u survive?!" i was really taken aback. I nvr tot of that. Perhaps i WOULD really die without frenz. I dunno. N then he stormed off, in abt a couple of minutes he came back n he looked at the letter n said some address at the top was the palce i was suppose to report. I was like "o ok how u noe?" den he shouted at me again, he went on n on n den he said "im trying very hard to be nice to u, but u onli make me hate u onli" I gotta b honest here, i hav no idea how shouting n scolding, n PURPOSELY doin the things we dun like, forcing us to do all the dirty work while he sits down n watches tv is being nice to me? Hmm, i need to go check up on definition of being nice, mayb that can be my university thesis. But oops i forgot, according to my wise mother, i wudnt hav that opportunity, but yet again, according to my dad, im suppose to b a double degree hodler, so i shud havta write anth thesis rite? Hmm, i need to ask my fren abt that. Hmm.
O i think i bttr go sleep, im goin to study early tmr morning. I totally LOVE my life, dun u all agree wif me? =]
