lumière de monde
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
And You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
matt redman
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Im being emo. For a good reason i guess. I just went to teresa's blog, and maybe cos my hand itchy or soemthing, i just scrolled all the way down and saw wad teresa posted like back in 2004 and all. As i scrolled up, i saw all the pics of teresa when she was in RCC, her entries, blah blah. Then i saw pics of ASAP, and then pics of POWER MNM's first ever life group outing at cafe cartel. I can still remember it was the last day of our O levels, and we were celebrating shan's and seck's bdae. I was still suaning stanley la, that his paper hasnt ended yet. Lol. And the stuff that happened after that, i think i would rather not say.
I tot of how LG was liek in the past, i tot of how i wud go out wif teresa n ben seck, liek after svc and all, at novena square, waiting for teresa's mom to come fetch her home, den me n seck wud go home. How teresa used to always buy ban mian n nth else, n i started to follow the rest of LG, eating the cai fan at foodcourt. Lol. Then there was this time we bought a tub of ice cream from cold storage and we took the food court spoons to eat the ice cream. We got caught by that sickening manager. but it was fun. But now, we only frequent united square food court for dinner. Life has changed huh? Lol.
I tot of how life was 2 years back, how church was so exciting then, not that it isnt right now, but that first love is gone, its liek a fleeting feeling, its there sometimes of cos, but when u try to grab it with your bare hands, it juz drifts further away from you. I wonder how much i hav grown spiritually. I guess there must indeed be at least that minimal growth, but is that ever enuff? I wonder. LG has gone through transformations. Major ones, the people for one hav changed definitely. The usuals in the past wud def include teresa, but she's no longer here now. How sharon used to be floating in n out on alternate saturdays. And now, she seems to be liek juz anth new comer. Hmm. The changes, the addition of people in POWER M&M is good of cos, but then i do yearn for that feeling in the past.
Life is becomign so real to me these days. Its like getting harsher, much more cynical and in fact, colder. Its liek stepping into a whole new dimension and the pressure is coming against me from all sides. Life in the past seems so much better isnt it? That innocence in the past. All the laugther and more. Hmm, i hate the monotonous life and the mundanities in life. But like wad amanda said, i guess we juz havta cling more onto God.
Ok i think im emo enuff le. Smile and pray for a bttr tmr. =].
