lumière de monde
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
And You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
matt redman
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Monday, January 01, 2007
ill try my best not to think abt it... but i juz cant seem to do that...
i tend to fill my life with useless excuses n other stuff so as to numb myself from things of this world. I wonder why do i even choose to do stuff that make me so painful inside? I wonder why i dread that word which i hate so much? Why do i even wan to embark on stuff that seem so alienated from me. I wonder how mant in this world actually care for me truely? Isit so hard for people to really live happily in this world? Why isit that "and they live happily ever after" happens onli in fairy tales? Why does this world seem so dreary when i hav so much to do? So many to help/save? So much to work on? I wonder why i even let myself continue?
New year isnt all that happy for me... Life isnt that happy for me at this very moment. Home seems colder den usual, n that tiny bit of warmth that im looking for encompasses wif so much complications. Why cant life b simple? Or isit complicated onli cos of how we see it n how we look at it? Why shud people b happy when a baby is born? For that onli means one more person waiting to suffer in this miserable life. Im tired den sad den angry den desperate den finally thinkin n laughing at myself for being such a fool. Tears arent that strange to me anymore. They hav become my bed companions in this few weeks. Wadeva the devil has done, i guess he has really suceeded. Though i try to break free of it, but still a whoel lot of me prefers leading that kind of life im living in. I dun wanna suffer liek this anymore. God help me!
I'll try not to cry to sleep tonite... gd nite people God bless and hav a really happy new year.
