lumière de monde
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
And You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
matt redman
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
Today's LG was perhaps one of the best LG sessions that we ever had. It was really touching i must say, and it kinda make me feel really bad for nto putting in my 100% to this LG and to the people in it. I guess its too late now to salvage anything, no point crying over spilt milk, so i onli havta look forward to the comign year and a new LG.
We started as per normal, i had avp duty so i went earlier. Scare me lar avp duty, the grey box spoil den i tot i make the hwoel thing spoil, in the end i realsie not my fault den i felt suepr heng. Lol. So anyway after that we had worship n all, den ps ben asked us all to split into LG and had this short moment of sharing la. About who imapcted u the most n stuff like that, from LG level and ministry level. So we went one round n blah blah blah blah. The next question was how we cud improve the LG or soemthing liek ythat, i guess we all gave quite a number of suggestions, but its really harder to put things into practice as compared to suggesting it. Yupz. So after that the 2 leaders, wai yin and jeremy liek told us they were goin to wash our feets, like seen from in the bible when Jesus washed His disciples feet. I was qutie taken aback and like didnt really wan jeremy to wash my feet la. It felt super wrong and like i didnt feel like he shud do it? Dunno lar. Haha. So anyhow we went thru wif the washigng feet procedure and i felt kinda convicted and all abt not doin much in LG and in my personal spiritual life. I guess wad jem n seck said was rite lar. I really havta focus n set my priorities right in my life. If i hav chosen to stick to God, i shud really follow thru wif it, not becos of obligations, but bcos i really wan to. That "ceremony" almost made me teared la, but i managed to hold it back.
After that, ps ben n sis lilian went on to wash the leaders feet, it was certainly heart warming, liek wad ps ben said, he rarely goes ard telling ppl i love u n sort. Haha. It wud seem weird if he really did. Lol. So the next event that happened was that we prayed for jeremy while ps ben washed his feets. It was really sad lar. LAST LG. I had this feeling like if onli no one came to JoinT and no one accepted, but i noe it was suepr wrong, and of cos i wanna c ppl coming to church, believing in Christ, hav a relationship wif God and all but at that moment i really wished that we will all stay in the same LG. I havent got enuff time to noe the ppl in LG well enuff yet and we havta part alredi. Then i tot abt msn, that i wud havta clear all the names under LG and move it somewhere else, n drag other contacts into LG from next year on, i really felt liek crying lar. So sad please. But i guess i shud b mre optimistic n open liek wad the leaders say and welcome the new batch of ppl who will be coming in really soon.
The saddest thing about leaving LG i guess wud b that i nvr ever did managed to tok to all the ppl in it, given 1 n 1/3 years to do so, i nvr ever manage to do so. Kinda disappointed but i guess i wud havta move on. I nvr really did share wif the ppl until after warming up recently. I feel so stupid that i backslide so easily n wasted so much time. I cud hav done so much during that time to noe mroe abt ppl in LG. I really gotta step out of my comfort zone to do so and all. Sounds cheesy but i really love the people in LG. Their the closest people to family or even closer soemtimes. The times that we had, fun sad lousy joy etc will now remain as part of my memory. Each member in LG, whether their new or old members really brought alot of joy to me. Saying good bye is the hardest and even though we still get to see each other in church, i guess it will nvr b the same again.
I love you people thanks alot for all the time we spent and if we ever go to different LG, i pray that God will still continue to use each n everyone of u in the most powerful way, cos we are people of worship evangelism and revival. Now its time for us to mature and for us to multiply. P.O.W.E.R M&M rawks!!
