lumière de monde
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
So here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
And You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
matt redman
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Friday, May 19, 2006
To start off, i would liek to talk about my previous entry, haha i just realise that the chinese words dun appear so i cant really do anythign abt that i hope u guys out there just read the english translation. Haha.
Ok, this week has been a real roller coaster for me. To kick start the week, i had to keep this really BIG secret for qibin and i was dying to tell the rest of the world. Then came the problems of how am i gg to tell the others especially this particular person. Luckily the problem was solved as i had alredi mentioned in my previous blog.
We had like hell lots of hw oso. By the end of this week, which means today, i had to submit 2 GP comprehensions which includes the summary and AQ, den i had to do a GP essay which i was liek totally clueless abt. There was matsh tutorial where i took hours just to complete wad felicia koh made us do. For chem, there was the chem tutorials to complete and chem test on chemical bonding. Econs was the worst subject. I had to submit a mini-essay which i didnt noe how to answer, there was the ecosn project on low end condominiums. Econs test on firms and how they operate was oso a killer. In the end i had countless of sleepless nite and thus i guess im gonna get eyebags really soon. Haha.
Also during the cause of the week, i had 2 arguments with other people. One was bcos i couldnt stand wad the fellow said and the other was bcos i c a change in attitude. I think im goin bersek btw. Im like going into emo mode so frequently, i like to sit alone sometimes in sch and then just start to think abt stuff quietly. I really cant stand this side of me sometimes. Haiz.
Whats worse is my spiritual life. The promise i made was broken and i tried to like get myself back but each time i tried to do something liek that, i would meet with even more hindrances. I dun wan to lose my passion yet im not doin anything at all. This attitude has to change, but i really hav no motivation to do anything at all recently, maybe bcos things are changing too quickly, but i dunno. Sometimes it seems so much easier to give up on everything. C im turning emo again. Haiz. Life sucks. Lol. Oh and recently i hav this dreaded feeling of giving up on council, its like so hard? i dunno i cnat think of a suitable word to use. HAIZ...
Of cos im relieved that the week is over, at least i handed in all my assignments on time. now i havta worry abt whether i can go to church, my parents are nagging at me again and then there are the mid yrs coming up. i really hope that i will pass wif FLYING colours so that i can prove to my parents that even though i go out frequently, i can still score well den they wudnt worry so much. But then hist is like weighing me down. The freaking essay format is alredi so hard to grasp. Haiz. Dunno whether i made the right choice taking hist. Anyway i really pray that i can find inspiration to live on. So tired and sick of my life. Why did God create me in the first place? T_T
